So lonely

[Young male voice]
[Intro – sparse violin, distant reverb, heartbeat low]
Drown.
Hopeless.
Everything feels miles away.

[Verse 1 – alternative rock, muted guitar, dry vocal]
I barely notice when the damage starts,
Break my bones just to avoid the dark.
When did it turn into this shape?
When did I learn to look away?

Dear love, I’m sorry — truly meant it then,
I promised I’d make you smile every day.
Instead I wake up busy hating myself,
Leaving scars on hearts I shouldn’t have touched.

[Pre-Chorus – violin rising, tension build]
I’m tired of being this beyond repair,
Tired of screaming into dead air.
Tired of saying life is killing me slow,
When I’m the one holding the knife to my hope.

[Chorus – emotional, full band, wide stereo]
I’m sick of hurting people that I love,
Sick of pretending I’m strong enough.
I’m sick of waking up ashamed of my face,
Sick of not loving myself anyway.

I’m sick of hurting people that I love,
Sick of acting like I’m made of stone.
Yeah, I’m sick of not loving myself,
Been done with myself for too long.

[Verse 2 – darker groove, distorted bass, whispered doubles]
They see me shining like a rockstar frame,
Don’t see me pulling with the devil’s chain.
Every dream is closer every mile,
But the wounds inside never heal in time.

Trying to count the years we lost,
Trying to name what went so wrong.
I know — it’s me, it’s always me,
Wanting too much, thinking too deep.

[Pre-Chorus 2 – stripped back, voice + violin]
I can’t fix the way my mind bends inward,
Can’t delete the doubt, can’t rewrite the filter.
Pessimism carved into my bones,
Self-hate set as default mode.

I say it out loud, yeah, there it is,
Is there anyone who gets this?

[Chorus – heavier, crash cymbals, raw scream layer]
I’m sick of hurting people that I love,
Sick of crying when it’s not enough.
I’m sick of hating every breath I take,
Sick of watching myself decay.

I’m sick of hurting people that I love, yeah,
Sick of living like I’m already gone.
I’m sick of not loving myself,
I stopped loving myself long ago.

[Bridge – breakdown, solo violin, tape saturation]
So lonely —
So lonely, it’s killing me.
So lonely —
Nothing’s coming to save me.

So lonely —
So lonely, it’s killing me.
So lonely —
I’m screaming inside of me.

[Outro – quiet resolve, violin + clean guitar]
So from today on, I swear I’ll try —
To stand on my side, not against my life.
From today on, even if it’s slow,
I’ll start learning how to love my own soul.

[fade out – violin tremolo, room reverb tails]

alternative rock, hard rock, k-pop, emo, orchestra, violin, drum and bass, house, trance, hypnagogic pop, male