DiRT Nap TEXT

Left it on read,
Now I’m lying in bed
Wondering if you’d care
If I wasn’t here instead.
I laughed at my pain so you wouldn’t feel bad,
Made a joke out of wounds I wish I never had.
Said I was tired—nobody asked why,
Just nodded and smiled, let the moment slide by.
I was loud with the silence, screaming for help,
But no one looks close when you fake it too well.
Kept showing up just to hold it inside,
Til the light in my chest started flickering out.
You said, “I’m here,”
But you weren’t when it mattered.
I gave you the pieces—
You watched me shatter.
Did you even notice when I broke that night?
Or did my tears just blend with the low streetlight?
I was right there fading, losing my grip,
But I guess you were busy… so you let me slip.
Did you even see me, or just my smile?
‘Cause I haven’t felt real in a long damn while.
I lit every bridge just to see who’d care,
Thought maybe the flames would draw someone there.
But I burned alone, like I always do,
And you watched from a distance like it wasn’t you.
I wrote little notes in the things I’d say,
But you skimmed right past and went on your way.
Said “I gotchu” back when things felt calm—
But when the bell was rung, you were gone.
You called me “strong,”
But I was barely breathing.
And no one checks in
When you’re good at deceiving.
Did you even notice when the light went out?
Or did you just chalk it up to another doubt?
I was holding on by a thread that frayed,
But you smiled like I’d be okay.
Did you even hear me, or was I too still?
‘Cause I screamed without sound and you never felt it.
I didn’t want pity or some grand save,
Just someone to stay when I pushed away.
Someone to sit in the dark and not speak,
Just be there when I couldn’t breathe.
I left little signs, but I guess they were small,
A joke, a sigh, not much at all.
But that’s the thing when you're hurting inside—
You hope someone sees, but you still hide.
Don’t post a quote, don’t fake that love,
Don’t write “miss you” when you gave me none.
I needed you then, not after I broke—
But now I’m just a name in the words you post.
Did you even notice…
When I begged in disguise?
When I said "I’m fine" but I meant goodbye?
Now it’s too quiet, now it’s too late—
And all I am is a screenshot fate.
Just another memory you scroll right through…
But I needed someone.
I needed you.

Southern Horrorcore / Dark Trap x Pain Rap Hybrid