Eighteen and Lost

Searching through the echoes of my mind,

Eighteen candles burning, yet I'm blind.

Lost in shadows, trying to feel the light,

Who am I? The question haunts me tonight.

Mirror tells a story I can't decode,

Every path I choose is heavy with the load.

I was just a boy caught in a whirlwind,

Feeling something deeper, hard to comprehend.

He laughed, and it felt like home,

In whispered dreams where I could roam.

But love's a language I can’t explain,

Fighting these feelings, drowning in the pain.

Eighteen and lost in a maze of my own,

Falling for a straight boy, I feel so alone.

Every glance brings a spark and a war,

Confusion's my halo, the heart's an open door.

Days turn to nights as I play pretend,

Seeking solutions that never mend.

Tangled emotions, a clips of a kiss,

A sweet insanity, a fleeting bliss.

Walls built around me threaten to fall,

Hiding who I am behind this brick wall.

But his laughter lingers, a beautiful crime,

Chasing the moments, losing track of time.

Eighteen and lost in a maze of my own,

Falling for a straight boy, I feel so alone.

Every glance brings a spark and a war,

Confusion's my halo, the heart's an open door.

In the chaos, I search for a sign,

In a world that's set to draw the line.

Why does love beat to a different drum?

Why am I running? Why can’t I succumb?

So here's to the journey, the thrill of the chase,

Finding myself in this tender embrace.

Eighteen years young, with my heart on my sleeve,

In a love that’s uncharted, I choose to believe.