Why Am I (Feat. Screamin’ Rubies)

[Verse 1 – Male]
Kitchen light humming at 2 a.m
You trace circles in the spilled red wine
Every sentence ends with “you again”
Like I planned the way we crossed that line
You say “look at what you’ve done to us”
Like every crack is carved in my name
I’m standing here in the dust
Wondering when I became your shame
[Chorus – Male]
Why am I the villain in your story?
Why am I the one you love to blame?
Every scar you carry pinned upon me
Every storm gets stamped with my name
Why am I?
Why am I?
[Verse 2 – Male]
You rewind every little fight
Edit me into the worst you’ve known
Play it back in black and white
Pause my face
Throw another stone
I’m choking on the words I’ve swallowed
Trying not to make it worse
But your truth is something hollow
And I’m cast as some cursed verse
[Pre-Chorus – Female]
Oh
I bled for this
You just stand there
Safe and small (so small)
You say you’re lost
But you built these walls
[Chorus – Female]
Why am I the only one that’s screaming?
Why am I the one who takes the fall?
All this weight you keep on me for healing
Like your hands were ever clean at all
Why am I?
(yeah, say it)
Why am I?
[Bridge – Male & Female]
[Band drops
Palm-muted guitars
Then build]
[Male]
I’m tired of being the problem
Tired of twisting into what you need
I won’t carry every caution
Won’t keep cutting just so you don’t bleed
[Female]
You’re tired of being the problem?
I’m tired of swallowing your doubt
You say you’re drowning in my anger
But I was drowning while you watched me drown
[Final Chorus – Both]
[Male]
Why am I the villain in your story?
[Female]
Why am I the one that has to scream?
[Male]
Every time you’re breaking
You restore me
As the monster in your favorite scene
[Both]
Why am I the weight you keep on dragging?
Why are we still burning for this lie?
If I’m always wrong and you’re still bragging
Maybe this is where we let it die
[Female]
Why am I?
(say it, say it)
[Male]
Why am I?
[Outro – Female then Male]
[Female – screamed]
I won’t be your problem anymore
[Male – soft]
I won’t be your problem anymore

metal, Soft, intimate male vocals over warm indie-pop chords and sparse drums; verses stay fragile and close-mic’d, with subtle piano and airy pads. Choruses explode as the female metal vocal tears in over detuned guitars, distorted bass, and double-time drums. Dynamics swing hard: quiet confession to volcanic release, with call-and-response hooks and a final stacked harmonized scream-outro., female vocals, soft, pop, male vocals