Left behind

I woke up today with the vibration of my bed but soon I realized it was the vibration of my head my body feels strange and I don’t know who I am then someone says my name over and over again I don’t know how I feel no emotions my mind is racing with thoughts unknown heard someone once say they received a download I know now that I’m not alone I’m not alone are these thoughts not my own who is controlling this life what’s going on I don’t feel right this is not my home when I look in the mirror it’s not me that I see not the person I once used to be this is not my life this is not my home I’m not the person that I used to know I walk through this life feeling so numb not feeling myself loosing the will to go on the people I see I the people I meet don’t seem real as If I’m stuck in a dream they all seem as one yet in all alone I failed to connect I missed the download I know something is there trying to guide me right but more and more I’m loosing my light there are voices I hear without a body insight I can’t seem to make out the the words the message is vague I feel so lost in this world blocked from what is deep down inside I know that this world has changed there is something I’m missing there is something inside I feel it from time to time the understanding I lack I see in others eyes when they look at me like I got left behind so unconnected alone I do walk maybe one day I can learn to talk find out who I am and become as I should be hear the words clearly become one with all that I can so I won’t be alone feeling lost and sad I know in my heart that the collective is real I’m just not a part of what this world is