Endless Gray Loop

[Verse 1]
Wake up to the same stain
Ceiling got a crack like a time vein
Coffee goes cold on the nightstand
Didn’t even light the day, just let it fade, man
Scroll ’til the thumb hurts
Eyes on fire, but the heart worse
Got plans in a box in the closet
Dust on the lid, never open, just watch it
[Chorus]
It’s that endless gray loop
Same four walls, same old truth
Round and round, I trace this room
Can’t break out, I just resume
Endless gray loop
Every thought drags like a boot
If there’s a way out, it’s out of view
So I sink back into the endless gray loop
[Verse 2]
Friends all say, “Hit me back soon”
Left ’em on read like last June
Missed calls stack like dishes in the sink
I don’t clean, I just don’t think
Sun goes down, I don’t notice
Window’s a screen for a slow glitch lotus
Talk to myself, but I cut the sound
Mouth still moving, but the voice turned down
[Chorus]
It’s that endless gray loop
Same four walls, same old truth
Round and round, I trace this room
Can’t break out, I just resume
Endless gray loop
Every thought drags like a boot
If there’s a way out, it’s out of view
So I sink back into the endless gray loop
[Bridge]
Maybe I’m fine, maybe I’m lying
Hard to tell quiet from dying
If hope comes back, it comes too late
Stands at the door, then forgets my name
[Chorus]
It’s that endless gray loop
Same four walls, same old truth
Round and round, I trace this room
Can’t break out, I just resume
Endless gray loop
Every thought drags like a boot
If there’s a way out, it’s out of view
So I sink back into the endless gray loop

rap, Slowcore-rap hybrid over glacial, reverbed piano and a faint, muffled kick. Vocals in cracked whisper-rap, close-mic’d, with subtle double-tracks on key words. Mix drenched in hazy ambience; chorus swells slightly with low synth pad and distant, ghostly harmonies, then collapses back to bare, numb verses. Energy stays low, hypnotic, and claustrophobic., depressing, ballad, hypnotic