Smilies

I keep the TV on at night

Not for the sound, just for the light

‘Cause silence makes it easier to hear it breathe

I used to think it was my head

Just all the things I never said

Now it’s standing where my shadow’s supposed to be

I don’t tell nobody else

They’d say I need a little help

But I know what I saw in my room

Door was locked, I checked twice

Still felt something wasn’t right

Like it moved every time I did

(Pre-Chorus)

And I hate the way it waits for me

Like it’s patient, like it knows me

Every time I feel too lonely

It shows up like it owns me

(Chorus)

Smilies in the dark again

Wide enough to pull me in

Teeth too white, too close, too real

Like it loves the way I feel

Heavy bass inside my chest

Like it’s knocking, won’t let rest

Every breath I take, it stays

Living in the empty space

Smilies when I look away

Still there when I try to pray

I don’t think it’s gonna leave

Think it’s part of me

(Drop – bass hits, distorted vocal chops)

“Don’t you feel better when I’m here?”

(Verse 2)

Now I see it in the day

Just softer, like it fades to gray

But I catch it slipping in reflections

Phone goes black, I see it grin

Right behind my shoulder again

Like it’s learning my expressions

I don’t sleep the same no more

Every creak, every floor

Got me frozen where I stand

And the worst part I can’t shake

Is the feeling when I break

It’s the only time it holds my hand

(Pre-Chorus)

And I know that it’s not right

But it stays through every night

When I’m barely even breathing

It’s the only thing not leaving

(Chorus)

Smilies in the dark again

Wide enough to pull me in

Teeth too white, too close, too real

Like it loves the way I feel

Heavy bass inside my chest

Like it’s knocking, won’t let rest

Every breath I take, it stays

Living in the empty space

Smilies when I look away

Still there when I try to pray

I don’t think it’s gonna leave

Think it’s part of me

(Bridge – stripped, emotional)

If I’m honest… I don’t scream anymore

I just sit there on the floor

And I let it get closer than it should

‘Cause it knows every scar

Every piece of who I are

And it stays when nobody else would

(Build – heartbeat bass rising)

Maybe I’m the one it chose

Maybe I’ll never be alone

(Final Chorus – energetic, chaotic)

Smilies in the dark again

Now I’m reaching out my hand

Teeth too bright, but I don’t run

I don’t fight it like I should

Heavy bass, I feel it sync

With every broken part of me

If I let it all the way in

Will it finally let me be?

Smilies when I close my eyes

Now it’s always by my side

If this is what I’ve become—

…why does it feel like home?