It's gotta be you

I love to listen to the rain
It's a nice distraction from my pain
I'd prefer to listen with you here
But instead you're over there

I don't know how to be vulnerable
So i just don't be it at all
I'm so afraid to put myself out there
But then I hope for you to come here

It's like who goes first
I don't know but I'm scared of being left in the lurch
I figured it's upto the guy
To make his woman feel safe enough that's why

I just wait for you to make
The first move but sometimes you take
Ages so am I supposed to just sit still
How long am I supposed to wait until?

Is it too much to ask for you
To make the first move?
Would you prefer that I just do
Whatever I want to

Or should I be more patient
And less pushy or complacent
I don't know anymore
I'm scared to do anything before

You say I can incase
I step in the wrong place
But then
You say I'm not open

You tell me I'm the one
Who makes it to hard and not fun
That I miss step and project
So I can't even get it right in my effort to protect

Me and my autonomy
I just gotta freeze in the monopoly
Of never knowing when or what
You wanna do or what you want

It's a rock and a hard place
I have no idea how to solve this case
So tell me please I need to know
Otherwise the only choice is to go

Which i don't fucking want at all
I want you in your strength it's your call
If you expect me to shrink while you
Figure it out I'm happy to

Unless it takes fucken forever
That's the only condition I've ever
Put on you since the start
Cos it's the shittiest thing denying my heart

All I wanna do is love on you
Please let me without shrinking too
Step up and meet me where I meet you
Where you started or above please boo

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