Please Stop Counting On Me

(Intro - spoken word)

“ Why the fuck do I do this to myself again?! I just fuck everything up! Why is this so hard?! Fuck!!

(Verse 1)

Packed the bags, told myself it’s the last time

Threw the pills down the sink, drew a hard line

Three days clean, I can feel my heart beat

Looking in the mirror, standing on my own two feet

But the air feels thin and the walls are closing in

And a whisper says "where have you been?"

It’s my old friend, I can feel you pulling me in

I can’t resist the pressure that I feel within

(Chorus)

And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs

Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs

It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream

Trying to swim in a frozen stream

Round and round, the cycle brings me low

Trying hard, but I don't know how to let go.

Ohhh I can’t let go! Ohhh can’t let go

(Verse 2)

Can’t count the fingers on my own hand

Texts from you that I don’t understand

Said I’d meet you there, and I’d be okay

But I’m too fucked up to even show up late

I’m fighting with demons whispering lies

Rewriting my brain like it’s plagiarized

Filled with little white lines, all through my mind

It’s diseased.

Please stop counting on me

(Chorus)

And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs

Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs

It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream

Trying to swim in a frozen stream

Round and round, the cycle brings me low

Trying hard, but I don't know how to let go.

Ohhh I can’t let go! (Can’t let go)

(Bridge)

They say one day at a time, I lasted an hour

I can’t fight the urge and I lost my power

I close my eyes, and I’m back at the start

Everything inside of me is falling apart

I need to breathe, I must be freed

But her nails are dug so deep inside me

(Breakdown)

Ohhh And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs

Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs

It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream

Trying to swim in a frozen stream

Round and round, the cycle brings me low

Trying hard, but I don't know how to let go.

(Outro)

But I don't know how to let go.

Just one more time...

But I don't know how to let go.

One more time...

Ohhhh one more time!!

I can’t let go!!!

Trying hard, but I don't know how

to let go.