[deep gritty Masculine male][melodic D&B death metal trap][husky female back up vocal][ethereal motif][fast tempo][d&b dark rave]
[Hook]
mind fuckery
So stuckery
Over overthinking
What the fucks the meaning
Brain drivin speeds peekin
Danger zone allow my inner freak in
Im my psycho zombie for the weekend
[Verse 1][gritty raspy female rap][pitch bent][fast][repeat motif][trap d&b dark rave][epic bassline]
My insane crazy part of me
Talk out loud to myself not quietly
Whole epiphanies
Day long symphonies
Or a few word piece of mindless poetry
But mostly
Theres 1 line from a song
1 line of lyrics goin round on & on
Over & over, same line repeated for the whole song
Cant stop so I just pretend theres nothin wrong
I try
Enjoy the ride
Twitchin inside
It switches in my mind
Then shifts it into auto pilot
Lifes inner world is a riot
brain gaps it & hides somewhere quiet
Takes a break so I dont over fry it
Too much what I try to keep private
Like my psycho queen comes out to fight it
So please hold for a moment
may I be excused
Ok, please Queue it
& play the elevator music
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Confusic
Gon' lose it
Black out glazed over
passed out still sober
Im a zombie but not dead
I cant hear what you said
Dont yell, I'm out
Offline while my
short circuit does a re-route
Sleep will get me online
wake me up totally fine
Otherwise
I could open my eyes
& have no sign of life
Check battery check wires
No spark when the ignition fires
"Hello hello"
Souls gone to call a pro fession Oh
[Pitch fx][pinched voice][telephone][operator tone][phone dial fx][spoken]
"Ahh yes hello, I wanna know, whats wrong with my human, I think it broke, I dunno?"
Troubleshoot
Go through a list of what to do
Some will make it through
most don't & some do after a reboot
Lights on but stuck in a crazy mode
A smart soul lowers ego
Stuck ones become a psycho
& cavemen just say [deep rough cave man male voice]"Oo yes me -I know"
Next time I'll call myself out faster
Cos fuck this shit causes disaster
Hate falling behind
Hate bein made to unwind
Wanna do the shit I gotta do this is a waste of time
So avoid that decline Ok I'll be fine
[hook]
[Verse 2]
At times won't notice I'm doin it
Till its too late & already losin it
Body tryna stop movin it
But I can't cos my mind keeps loopin it
clingin onto things that I cant explain
Embedding them deep down in my brain
Like Im tryin to gain
First prize in a game
Of see how much info I can obtain
How much & how fast can I process & retain
Dont miss any crucial bits
If I do i might lose & have to start again
Oh My God this is stupid Im insane
But I say
To myself
once I figure it out
at least then I'll be done & can sit down
But for now
I cant rest yet till all of these
Pieces & voices in my head are gathered processed & released
Is this the end ohh please
Otherwise fuck!
"there goes my peace"
[Bridge]
lost in my fantasy dream
A world I created while asleep
A realm only I can see
My truest form of safety
Nobody walking in on me
Its mine just 4 me
[Hook]