“Hard To Hold”

🎵 Hook (autotuned, soft but strained)

I ain't broken, I'm just hard to hold (yeah)
Got some pain I ain't ever told (nah)
You could love me, but it feel too close
Every hug pull a memory I ghost

I don’t mean to push you back when you care (I don't)
But love got claws and it caught me there
Tried to give you what I never got
But I’m built from loss and a padlock heart


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[Verse 1 – Deep vulnerability, street-coded love]

I don’t trust the warmth — it don’t last long
Got hugged by lies with a good-guy song

Kissed by betrayal in silk sheets
Now love look like pain in a heart beat

I flinch at “forever,” pause on “stay”
'Cause I seen heaven turn ghosts in a day

You see a man, I see a wound in jeans
Tryna hide my hurt in a love routine

I don’t mean to freeze when it’s good
But I come from a place where love ain’t stood


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🔊 Ad-Libs – Verse 1:
“Still healing.” / “I warned you.” / “Facts.” / “Don’t leave tho…”


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🎵 Hook (repeat, background harmony builds)

I ain't broken, I'm just hard to hold
Got some pain I ain't ever told
You could love me, but it feel too close
Every hug pull a memory I ghost

I don’t mean to push you back when you care
But love got claws and it caught me there
Tried to give you what I never got
But I’m built from loss and a padlock heart


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[Verse 2 – Reflective tone, internal conflict]

You say “let me in,” I freeze at the door
I’ve been loved before... in a tug-of-war

She said she loved me, then dipped with my peace
Now “I love you” sound like a thief

I be tryna grow but my soil cracked
You plant love here — it might not come back

But if you patient with a storm like me
You might find warmth where the cold still breathe

Don’t chase perfection — I got none
But if you real, I won’t run


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🔊 Ad-Libs – Verse 2:
“Don’t give up.” / “Hard truth.” / “Scars talk.” / “I’m tryin’ tho.”


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🎧 Outro – reverb, solo guitar plucks

(Spoken)
I ain’t afraid of love…
I’m afraid it’s gon’ feel like her again.

89 BPM, Ambient guitar loop, distant vocal samples, slow 808s, male