38 days in the dark

“38 Days in the Dark”

(Intro – whisper layers, panned left/right)

stay…

please stay…

don’t leave me here…

don’t—don’t—don’t—

(low bass rumble, distant creak, heartbeat kicks in)

(Verse 1 – low, tight, building)

I begged on my knees ‘til my throat went numb,

Spoke apologies like a loaded gun,

Every word I said just ricocheted,

Cold silence cut deeper than the games you played.

Months on repeat, me chasing ghosts,

You fed me crumbs, I called it hope,

You turned your back like I was dust,

While I was choking on “just one more chance” and trust.

(Pre-Chorus – rising, strained)

You ever scream and nothing moves?

You ever break and they don’t choose you?

I carved your name into my veins,

Just to feel something through the pain.

(Chorus – explosive, high/low contrast)

THIRTY-EIGHT DAYS IN THE DARK WITH MY THOUGHTS,

NO VOICE, NO TOUCH, JUST THE WAR THAT I FOUGHT,

I TALK TO WALLS ‘CAUSE THEY DON’T WALK AWAY,

THEY DON’T PROMISE LOVE THEN LEAVE ME TO DECAY.

I’M HAUNTED BY THE GIRL I USED TO BE,

SHE’S SCREAMING FROM THE SHADOWS “COME FIND ME,”

BUT EVERY TIME I REACH—I BLEED—

AND YOU’RE JUST GONE… LIKE I DON’T NEED.

(Verse 2 – faster cadence, unstable)

House turned cage, mind turned knife,

Counting cracks like they’re saving my life,

No footsteps, no laughter, no human sound,

Just my heartbeat tryna drag me down.

I stopped opening doors, stopped answering calls,

Depression got me pacing these same damn walls,

Only leave when the world demands,

Then I run right back to these empty hands.

(Whisper break – layered, creeping)

they don’t come back…

they don’t stay…

you’re too much…

you’re in the way…

(Pre-Chorus – distorted, desperate)

Abandonment’s a daily dose,

A ghost inside me nobody knows,

Each goodbye rewires my brain,

Now love just sounds like future pain.

(Chorus – heavier, more chaotic)

THIRTY-EIGHT DAYS IN THE DARK WITH MY HEAD,

COUNTING EVERY WAY I COULD’VE JUST BEEN DEAD,

NO LIGHT, NO GOD, JUST ME AND THE FEAR,

AND A THOUSAND WAYS TO DISAPPEAR.

I’M BEGGING YOU TO SHOW UP, STAY,

BE THE MAN YOU WERE THAT DAY,

BUT YOU JUST TAKE, THEN WALK AWAY—

LEAVE ME ROTTING WHERE I LAY.

(Bridge – slow, eerie, almost spoken)

I used to believe in forever…

stupid, right?

(distant child laughter warped, then cuts)

I replay your voice like a curse in my skull,

“You’re too hard to love… you’re too much… you’re too full…”

So I shrank, I broke, I bent ‘til I snapped,

Now I don’t even know how to come back.

(Breakdown – bass drop, whispers + screams layered)

stay with me…

why won’t you stay…

I gave you everything… everything… everything…

(scream cut)

(Final Chorus – unhinged, full force)

THIRTY-EIGHT DAYS AND I’M LOSING MY MIND,

TRYNA KILL THE PART OF ME YOU LEFT BEHIND,

IF LOVE’S A GAME THEN I LOST MY LIFE,

CUT TOO DEEP WITH A BROKEN KNIFE.

I DON’T WANT THIS PAIN BUT IT WON’T LET GO,

SUICIDE’S THE ONLY THOUGHT I KNOW,

BUT SOMEWHERE DEEP—A FLICKER, A FIGHT—

A RAGGED BREATH THAT WON’T GO QUIET.

(Outro – soft, haunting, almo