Whatever’s Left

Yeah…

I don’t care no more.

Stay, leave, burn it down—

fuck it.

Heart full of static, lungs full of smoke

Love tastes rotten like a bad ass joke

I chased your shadow down every street

Now it’s laughing while it’s choking me

Got your name carved deep in my skull

Every “maybe” hit me like a loaded gun

I loved you loud, I loved you wrong

Now I don’t know where the hell I belong

You want me clean, I’m already stained

You want forever, I’m tired of chains

I bled myself dry just to feel something real

Now numb’s the only thing I feel

Fuck it all, I give up tonight

Stay or go, I’m done with the fight

Love me, hate me, kill me slow

I don’t give a fuck where this goes

If you’re gone, then I’ll still breathe

If you stay, it won’t fix me

One of us breaks, one of us falls

Fuck it—whatever, I lost it all

Your voice in my head like a bad relapse

Sweet poison kiss, yeah I fell for that

Lust had a grip, yeah it pulled me under

Turned every touch into rolling thunder

I don’t trust shit, not even me

Every promise just another lie to feed

I’d burn this bed, burn this house

Just to shut these feelings out

You say my name like it’s a sin

Say I’m broken—yeah, you win

I tried to care, I tried to stay

Now I’m throwing it all away

Fuck it all, I give up tonight

Stay or go, I’m done with the fight

Love me, hate me, kill me slow

I don’t give a fuck where this goes

If you’re gone, then I’ll still breathe

If you stay, it won’t fix me

One of us breaks, one of us falls

Fuck it—whatever, I lost it all

I loved you sick

I loved you mean

I loved you like it was gasoline

Set myself on fire just to feel alive

Now I’m ashes with my hands tied

I don’t want saving

I don’t want truth

I just want silence from loving you

So stay…

or don’t.

I’m done begging the dark for hope.

Fuck it.