God, Why Am I Like This?

Screaming to the void, why the fuck am I like this?

Lost in the chaos, buried in the abyss

God, can you fucking hear me?

Why do I push everyone away?

Deep down, I know I need their fucking help

But fear’s a monster, tearing me apart

Broken shards of trust, a bleeding fucking heart

Craving salvation but drowning in silence

Fucking alone in this goddamn violence

Why can't I ask for help without the shame?

God, why the fuck is this my damn blame?

Why the fuck am I so stupid?

Why the hell do I push away the ones who give a shit?

Fists clenched, screaming into the black

God, do you hear my fucking pain?

Cry out in rage, claw at the sky

No one to hold me as I fucking cry

Mother told me I was the fucking blame

But I just wanna end this fucking pain

Screaming to the void, why the fuck am I like this?

Broken and lost, can't find my fucking bliss

God, please, just answer, why do I suffer?

Falling apart, I can't take it any longer