Lonely Road

I feel the loneliness sinkin’ in

Yeah…

I been here before

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I feel the loneliness sinking in

I’m going down this road again (once again)

I only wanna make it right

Been this way my whole damn life

Distant from the world, how I feel inside

Numb from all the pain, I can’t decide

Trapped inside a room, yeah these four walls stare

Feels way too familiar, I been here since a kid, I swear

Take me back when stress didn’t breathe down my neck

Swingset days, time froze, we ain’t feel regret

Couldn’t wait to grow up, now I wish I stayed

Life got cold, grew up, everybody strayed

Every situation I wanna control it

Maybe that’s the reason people say I’m controlling

Damaged soul looking for a way to mend

I don’t want pills or a stranger pretendin’ to understand

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You don’t know the hell I been through

You don’t know the price I paid

You don’t see the walls I’m bracing

Every second, every day

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You don’t know the hell I been through

You don’t know the weight I carry

Every bit of man I once was

Still lives in me — buried

Nobody help me, I’m not cold, I’m empty

Someone heal me, hold me, help me remember me

I’m lost in my head, yeah I fight it daily

These walls got eyes and they always watch me

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Liars lie, sinners sin

Tide too high — sink or swim

Doc say meds, I shake my head

I gotta face this shit from within

I’d rather walk alone up this lonely hill

Than numb my soul just to cope with pills

Thoughts keep winnin’ but I plan to beat it

Won’t stop till the fear stands defeated

My whole life been a prayer in pieces

Tryna manifest more than survival seasons

From burned CDs to chance I seized

I took that risk when nobody believed

Almost done, had a few close calls

Could’ve blown it all when the pressure stalled

Home alone at my lowest height

But I felt that fight in my soul that night

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You don’t know the hell I been through

You don’t know the scars I hide

You don’t see the walls I’m bracing

Or the wars inside my mind

Nobody help me, I’m not cold, I’m empty

Inside I’m lonely, don’t know who gets me

I’m not safe but I’m still standing

Broken hands but I’m still demanding

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Maybe I don’t need saving

Maybe I just need time

To sit with all this damage

And still call it mine

If pain built who I am now

Then I won’t let it win

I’m still breathing through the doubt

That’s how the healing begins

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You don’t know the hell I been through

But I’m still here, still alive

Every bit of love I lost

I’m learning how to find

Nobody help me — I help myself now

Still feel empty, but I won’t back down

Lost in my ways, yeah, scared, yeah maybe

But this lonely road still didn’t break me

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I’m still walkin’ this lonely road

But at least I know

I’m not invisible anymore