Hide Behind

Don't stand too close to me

When im crying in the bathroom

Don't worry, I'll be fine

I have masks to hide behind

Do you need one, too

I know how to replace my tears with tap water

I can grit my teeth till all you see

Is a smile

I light up the room with small talk

Don't worry, I'm fine

I could be normal like you

Just let me grab this mask

Out my back pocket

Don't want to fight flight or fawn

Anymore

They said what doesn't kill you

Only makes you stronger

But my body keeps the score

Then comes the words that

Won't shut up

Talking out the side

Of my neck to you

Ideas of grandeur galore

We're tripping over unfinished

Projects on my floor

Crumpled up and crying at 4 a.m.

Rapid speech on the phone

To my mom again

I hope she doesn't think

I'm on drugs this time

There's just so much to say

Then she'll tell me I'll be fine

As I wait patiently for

The pills to kick in

Don't want to fight flight or fawn

Anymore

They said what doesn't kill you

Only makes you stronger

But my body keeps the score