Mouth the words to deny, deny the symptoms, as 'oh yeah I'm doing fine', as I've found a most endearing psychosis. Somewhere out there there's a thrill I swear. Desperate as I am I just can't strip bare and bleed the only purity I've known. But I lay with reason. Found logic concieved in a walk with skin. I lay with reason producing these monsters. Under painted catcalls as in temptation. yeah there's a key to be in, but there's no shade, no shade to blame. Waterfalls in a cool grey, and the struggle is colored grey this day. The caw of crows fills up the picture plane. Our picture plane is veiled in central neutral grey. Absinthe to slight the pain. This world's this worst case color scheme. Streaks of oil stain, stained the road he crawled on homeward. Oh yeah, oh yeah he killed the switch with some unwieldy gauge, absence and light remain. I lay with reason found logic and reap in a walk with sin. El sueno razon produce monsinios. When does this dream end? Now I've missed another whole season, I've missed the fall, clearly its fallen on this land as fields once green are ochre now. This is no dream. Trees have turned to skeleton, roots teased and knotted just below the surface skin of ground. Stitched between the earth and the sky struggling to hold it down. Sometimes to realize you have to lose track of sight blurring my vision makes it clear the tiny moving parts make up the whole. The image is clear, a tower is built of my own pride, I cry in the shade that if offers, the only shelter I've known. When does this dream end? This is no dream. This is the walking living breathing caricature of a memory. Shamelessly I cave in to temptation of creation. But still my only thrill is empty sidewalks, silent streets. The caw of crows fills up the picture plane. This is your picture plain in central neutral grey. This world's this worst case color scheme. Streaks of oil stain, stained the road he crawled on homeward. Oh yeah, oh yeah he killed the switch with some unwieldy gauge, absence and light remain. Life is lowly anonymity, in death a noble pose, a Marat David. Tell me who wouldn't give their lives for such a soap box to die behind. Life is lowly, lowly anonymity. In the space of a smile I found sleep. As in sorrow, so shall ye reap, as in reason so shall ye sleep. Reap the promised end to the struggle. Reap every point on our linear path. Reap the smiles in time we borrow, every harvest relies on the last. Reap the promising song of the sparrow, that they learned from the birth of sea. Silenced by the threnody of the crows. Reap the fallen fruit of the dogwood tree. But I witnessed in all this silence one souls definition of beauty. a backlit smile so temporary. A facade so rich with evil history. Cast in direct opposition set to overwhelm his moment to shine and sleep- came out on top of what was borrowed, and found all that beauty to be still. Every breath as in sorrow, reap the promised end to this path, by every image that we borrow, every

Epilog of the end of my life