[Intro][trap d&b gangsta][death metal layer][dynamic bassline][catchy loop][nordic motif][deep male choral backing]
[Hook][haunting raspy female][emo trap layer][violin vamp][beat pad]
Im here, the start
Floatin' through life,
Go past the middle part
Wake up somewhere in the end
Swing back round & back to the start Again
[Verse 1][quick gritty husky female rap][pitch fx]
Its like Im standing infront if that board
Like when youre lost in some plastic mall full of chain stores
Find the dot it says "you are here"
Then try find the way you wanna go from there
But its never that fucken easy when youre on the floor walkin it
That dotted line that said it was just round the bend was talkin shit
Took me to where it used to be 6 months ago before
It changed into another one if those mutha fugging dollar stores
Nevermind I'll find it myself - pfft yea right
How much do i need this thing anyway I been doin alright
Till now without it in my life
Growin up time to adult now gotta find
My own food water clothes and a bed to sleep in at night.
Then shit, I guess it is quite
Important to look for that fucking place inside
Cos I aint doin this for the rest of my life
Livin not knowing where im gonna be tomorrow today & if im save too night
[Hook]
[Rap Verse 2]
& when I'm deep in
I dont always see the very beginnin'
Take it in as, another chance at
All the shit I did shit & see all the shit
I almost missed
Get up & go all in
Jump quick let myself fall in
Full heart Hard & fast
Trust yourself, only you got you
Learn from the past
This time today - this time its gonna last
[Hook]
[Interlude][layered sub bassline][quadruple kick][dark rave d&b]
[Bridge][gritty raspy haunting female rap][high intensity][angry tone][fast trap gangsta][dark rave][build]
Typical, just as I get into my flow
He comes in my vision cant see where the path goes
Im too distracted
Too attracted
To his charm
his brawn His way of pleasin me
Gets me weak in the knees when hes teasin me
Then after I've been sucked in
To relyin on him
For shit I gotta get done cos life's piling it on thick
Its like a flash a blink
Hes gone so fast I didnt have time to think
Turn around & the other's back
Its like they've tapped the others hand & said its your lap
Put up a sign 'gone to lunch in an hour I'll be back'
Ok I'll play along till then hes gone too & now another's fillin the shoes
But fuck! Then hes gone aswell & now
What the hell am I supposed to do
All of you disappear when its the actual time I'm needing you..
Fine - I got me, I'll do it myself
Fuck you!
& again I ask myself why
I do this fucking loop on repeat for 4 years almost 5
Well the only answer I got is cos this guy
Meets my needs in 1 or 2 ways but not all
& never at the same time
He cant seem to bring me & inconveniently
its the main thing I need
Even when we are only together just casually
[Whine] Yup thats my life - its fucked up right
But what else can I do?
I guess I'll just have to wait n see [suspenseful fade fx]
[Hook]
[End]