(NOT) In Love

I’ve been told by many

I’m obsessed

I’m in denial

But every once and a while

I see

I can’t be in love

Can I?

No way I am

I don’t fall in love

I refuse to fall in love

This man

He makes my heart race

A strange feeling washes over me when I look at him

Surely this isn’t love

His smile makes me smile

I laugh when he laughs

It’s just admiration

Nothing close to love

There’s no point to it anyway

It’s not like we’ll be together

Not that I imagine it

I know I have no chance

Not that I’d want one

What’s denial if there’s nothing to deny

What does it mean when they say I lie

I’m not in love

No way

Even if I had feelings

I feel like they’re fading

Maybe I’m done waiting

To see what’s really there

I’m not in love

Now way

Am I?

No how

But when I look at him

Another thought takes over

Maybe I really am

In love

I doubt it’ll last long

But I think

I’m in love