(NOT) In Love

I’ve been told by many
I’m obsessed
I’m in denial
But every once and a while
I see
I can’t be in love
Can I?
No way I am
I don’t fall in love
I refuse to fall in love
This man
He makes my heart race
A strange feeling washes over me when I look at him
Surely this isn’t love
His smile makes me smile
I laugh when he laughs
It’s just admiration
Nothing close to love
There’s no point to it anyway
It’s not like we’ll be together
Not that I imagine it
I know I have no chance
Not that I’d want one
What’s denial if there’s nothing to deny
What does it mean when they say I lie
I’m not in love
No way
Even if I had feelings
I feel like they’re fading
Maybe I’m done waiting
To see what’s really there
I’m not in love
Now way
Am I?
No how
But when I look at him
Another thought takes over
Maybe I really am
In love
I doubt it’ll last long
But I think
I’m in love

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