Backslide

Don’t act brand new.

You miss me just like I miss the way we destroyed each other.

This ain’t love — it’s a bad habit dressed in your skin.

And I still can’t quit you.

You say don’t call, but your voice got a crack

Said you moved on, but you always crawl back

Midnight texts, full of “fuck me” and “maybe”

Swear you hate me, but you still wanna save me

We don't do love — we just do pain

Fucked on the floor, then curse out my name

Tears on your lips, nails in my skin

Goddamn, we both know we’ll do it again

I swear I hate you some days

But I'd still pull up if you said you ain't ate

You’d open the door in my hoodie, no bra

Say “this is the last time,” then ride me raw

You scratch at my chest like you're tryna dig in

I moan out your name like I'm tryna repent

But we ain't holy, baby — we’re just fucked

Addicted to chaos, confused it with love

You post your little quotes, tryna act deep

But you hit me up drunk, beggin’ for sleep

“Just hold me, don’t talk,” yeah I know that script

You miss the way I ruin your lips

And I miss the way you lied so sweet

Told me I mattered while you fucked up my peace

But I ain’t innocent either, I played my part

You bled on me, I bit with my heart

You say don’t call, but your voice got a crack

Said you moved on, but you always crawl back

Midnight texts, full of “fuck me” and “maybe”

Swear you hate me, but you still wanna save me

We don’t do healing — we just do scars

Fucked-up souls with unfinished parts

Tears on your lips, nails in my skin

Goddamn, we both know we’ll do it again

I laugh when it hurts just to feel like I’m here

Act like I’m fine, but I’m numb in the mirror

Scroll past my own reflection like a stranger

Say “I’m good” ‘cause I’m scared of the real answer

I ghost you for weeks, then pop up like nothin’

You leave my shit on read — still feel somethin’

We don’t need closure, we just need pain

A little reminder that we still ain’t changed

You like it rough, I like it raw

We’re both too numb to feel the fall

You say “don’t tell nobody I called”

But baby, you called. You fucking called.

I ain’t lookin’ for pity

I just want the truth

Did I ever matter?

Or was I just a phase you outgrew?

And maybe that’s the saddest part

I still miss you in pieces

Like your ghost got teeth

And I’m the one bleeding

You say don’t call, but I hear you ache

Swear you’re done, but your voice still shakes

We say “this time,” then fall in too deep

‘Cause love like this don’t let you sleep

Nah…

Love like this don’t let you leave.

You always said I was the one that ruined us…

But you never closed the door.

You just waited… for me to knock.