Backslide

Don’t act brand new.
You miss me just like I miss the way we destroyed each other.
This ain’t love — it’s a bad habit dressed in your skin.
And I still can’t quit you.
You say don’t call, but your voice got a crack
Said you moved on, but you always crawl back
Midnight texts, full of “fuck me” and “maybe”
Swear you hate me, but you still wanna save me
We don't do love — we just do pain
Fucked on the floor, then curse out my name
Tears on your lips, nails in my skin
Goddamn, we both know we’ll do it again
I swear I hate you some days
But I'd still pull up if you said you ain't ate
You’d open the door in my hoodie, no bra
Say “this is the last time,” then ride me raw
You scratch at my chest like you're tryna dig in
I moan out your name like I'm tryna repent
But we ain't holy, baby — we’re just fucked
Addicted to chaos, confused it with love
You post your little quotes, tryna act deep
But you hit me up drunk, beggin’ for sleep
“Just hold me, don’t talk,” yeah I know that script
You miss the way I ruin your lips
And I miss the way you lied so sweet
Told me I mattered while you fucked up my peace
But I ain’t innocent either, I played my part
You bled on me, I bit with my heart
You say don’t call, but your voice got a crack
Said you moved on, but you always crawl back
Midnight texts, full of “fuck me” and “maybe”
Swear you hate me, but you still wanna save me
We don’t do healing — we just do scars
Fucked-up souls with unfinished parts
Tears on your lips, nails in my skin
Goddamn, we both know we’ll do it again
I laugh when it hurts just to feel like I’m here
Act like I’m fine, but I’m numb in the mirror
Scroll past my own reflection like a stranger
Say “I’m good” ‘cause I’m scared of the real answer
I ghost you for weeks, then pop up like nothin’
You leave my shit on read — still feel somethin’
We don’t need closure, we just need pain
A little reminder that we still ain’t changed
You like it rough, I like it raw
We’re both too numb to feel the fall
You say “don’t tell nobody I called”
But baby, you called. You fucking called.
I ain’t lookin’ for pity
I just want the truth
Did I ever matter?
Or was I just a phase you outgrew?
And maybe that’s the saddest part
I still miss you in pieces
Like your ghost got teeth
And I’m the one bleeding
You say don’t call, but I hear you ache
Swear you’re done, but your voice still shakes
We say “this time,” then fall in too deep
‘Cause love like this don’t let you sleep
Nah…
Love like this don’t let you leave.
You always said I was the one that ruined us…
But you never closed the door.
You just waited… for me to knock.

Cloud rap slushwave, Darkwave trap, alt R&B, hip-hop