Nothing at all

Man I fucked up for the important things in my life I must of

Now I live my life empty deep down I continue to suffer

And it's my fault don't you dare blame anyone else

I'm the man of the house and I let the mission failed

And the one thing for me that made me the proudest in this world

Anybody know me knows it's my wife and my girls

Shocked for my life I couldn't do nothing

How did this happen I couldn't even function

Something has to eventually turn my way

i gave up on myself still waiting on that day

But I don't even know what that is

At the end of the day I'm still feeling like shit

get this I am a little better I had to kill myself

That's why I live everyday not expecting anything else

i don't need money no plans and I got no hope to live for

I promise myself to appreciate the days if I get more

And more and more I can see

I'm not mad but I would of gave anything for my family

But in hindsight I did that too

I'm trying to understand what the fuck did I do

I apologize I wish I had someone to help me

I didn't say shit so there's nothing you can tell me

Would you want things to end if you can never find the start

I literally fell apart and damaged my heart

I know what I went through you don't have to know

I hope God understands I hope he heals my soul

It's too overwhelming I consider it a sacrifice

I hope I take away all the pain that was meant for all my families life

That's all I ever wanted ànyway the best for them all

I still don't know what to do with my life nothing at all