Strewn

Scattered pieces of me

Strewn all about

Making it through

Is forever in doubt

What once was my treasure

Once was my prize

Has been ripped from my arms

Much like my disguise

Wanting and needing

Both are a curse

Crying and wailing

Scribbling in verse

Being so forthright

So in your face no

All just my cover

For being so out of place

Victim to time

Victim to love

Living in Hell

For there's no God above

Trying forever to find any meaning

But the whole process

Is all just so demeaning

Beaten so often

Now I'm just numb

Being so smart

But feeling so dumb

Having such potential

Just another hell

But the scenerys different

So it's alls just as well

Hoping forever

My pens my release

But write all I care to

Still no sign of peace

Giving up hope

That thought is a joke

Burns in my mind

Leaving puffs of smoke

My only companion

The one that's endured

Just sickens me always

For the feelings it's stirred