I miss me
I miss the version
who didn’t pause
before answering a question
the one who didn’t need a lantern
to get through the day
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I don’t miss everything
just the way she moved through a room
like it belonged to her
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I miss—
…no, I don’t know what to call her
she’s gotta be in there somewhere
people don’t just disappear
do they?
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I tried to find her again
even in places she would never go
Why is she avoiding me
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the music still plays
I can hear it
I just don’t believe them anymore
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I stand there
like I’m waiting for permission
from someone
who used to be me
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I miss her
not the messy pieces
not the easy ones
just the way she didn’t think
she had to earn her place
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I miss her
The one who didn’t reread her own messages a million times
I miss