I Miss Me

I miss me

I miss the version
who didn’t pause
before answering a question

the one who didn’t need a lantern 
to get through the day
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I don’t miss everything
just the way she moved through a room
like it belonged to her

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I miss—
…no, I don’t know what to call her

she’s gotta be in there somewhere
people don’t just disappear

do they?

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I tried to find her again
even in places she would never go

Why is she avoiding me

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the music still plays

I can hear it 
I just don’t believe them anymore

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I stand there
like I’m waiting for permission

from someone
who used to be me

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I miss her

not the messy pieces 
not the easy ones

just the way she didn’t think
she had to earn her place

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I miss her
The one who didn’t reread her own messages a million times

I miss 

Soft piano, intimate breathy female vocal, spoken style, slow tempo, minimal, raw, emotional, reflective, no drums