“Trying While I’m Tired”

“Trying While I’m Tired”

(Ann Marie style — emotional R&B/HipHop, pain + ad libs)

Yeah…

(mmm…)

I’m tired for real…

(so tired…)

Still waking up fighting though…

(yeah…)

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Mentally numb, emotionally drained (drained…)

Every smile in this house hide pain (hide pain…)

Physically weak but I still move strong (still do…)

Act like I’m okay when everything wrong

Too many nights I cried in silence (silence…)

Family wounds turn love to violence (hurt me…)

I be tryna heal but the scars too deep

Can’t even rest, I barely sleep (mmm…)

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I’m tired and trying… (trying…)

But this pain keep multiplying (keep on…)

Emotionally dumb, I can’t say what I feel (what I feel…)

Fake a smile so nobody know it’s real

I’m tired and trying… (yeah…)

Heart so heavy, soul been dying

Family pain got me losing myself

Still I carry it all by myself…

(by myself…)

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They don’t see the pressure buildin’ up (nah…)

Everybody take but don’t give enough

I done gave love till I went cold (went cold…)

Now my heart feel broke and old

Screaming inside but I stay quiet

Too hurt to care, too tired to fight it

But I’m still here, ain’t gave up yet

Even with pain wrapped around my neck

(yeah… yeah…)

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I’m still trying though…

(even when it hurt…)

Still standing somehow…

(mmm…)

Maybe one day this pain gon’ let me breathe…

But right now…

I’m just tired…

(so tired…)