Still alive

Still alive, still fuckin’ up my night
Bad bitch with me, she glowin’ in the lights
Heart so cold, wrist so bright
If I crash right now, I’m feelin’ alright
Still alive, still stuck in my ways
No brakes on the whip, no peace in my brain
She say slow down, I say not today
Still alive, still alive, okay

Yeah I woke up faded with a girl I don’t know
She say she love me, I laugh like “no”
Phone keep buzzin’, ex bitch mad again
Say I’m toxic, yeah, I been knew that then
I don’t chase love, I chase the rush
Pour another drink, yeah, fill my cup
Heart got scars but my chain on shine
Broken inside but I look just fine

She say I’m reckless, I say I’m free
Fast cars, bad habits, bad energy
I tried bein’ sober, I hated the feel
I feel more alive when the pain feel real
Money in my jeans, but my soul feel cheap
Too many nights I don’t even sleep
I smile for pics but I scream in my head
Tell myself lies just to get outta bed

Still alive, still fuckin’ up my night
Bad bitch with me, she don’t need a light
Heart so cold, wrist so bright
If I crash right now, I’m feelin’ alright
Fast love, fake friends, no shame
Too numb to feel what I can’t escape
She know my name, don’t know my pain
Still alive, still alive, okay

I got demons that party with me
They don’t leave when the sun come up
Every girl think she can save me
I just fuck it all up
I don’t mean to be heartless
I just learned how to cope
When you grow up in the dark
You scared of real hope

Liquor talk louder than my thoughts
Pills make peace that I never bought
They say slow down, I speed it up
If life a bitch, then I beat it up
I don’t trust love, I trust time
Time show me everybody lie
If I die young, don’t cry for me
I felt everything inside

Still alive, still fuckin’ up my night
Bad bitch with me, she glow in the lights
Heart so cold, wrist so bright
Still alive, yeah, still alive

If tomorrow gone, I lived my way
Loved too hard, made the same mistakes
Still alive, still stuck in my phase
No brakes, no fear, okay

Upbeat melodic rap, heartbreak, bad girls, fast life, toxic love, flex pain, catchy hook, emotional but hype