Still alive

Still alive, still fuckin’ up my night

Bad bitch with me, she glowin’ in the lights

Heart so cold, wrist so bright

If I crash right now, I’m feelin’ alright

Still alive, still stuck in my ways

No brakes on the whip, no peace in my brain

She say slow down, I say not today

Still alive, still alive, okay

Yeah I woke up faded with a girl I don’t know

She say she love me, I laugh like “no”

Phone keep buzzin’, ex bitch mad again

Say I’m toxic, yeah, I been knew that then

I don’t chase love, I chase the rush

Pour another drink, yeah, fill my cup

Heart got scars but my chain on shine

Broken inside but I look just fine

She say I’m reckless, I say I’m free

Fast cars, bad habits, bad energy

I tried bein’ sober, I hated the feel

I feel more alive when the pain feel real

Money in my jeans, but my soul feel cheap

Too many nights I don’t even sleep

I smile for pics but I scream in my head

Tell myself lies just to get outta bed

Still alive, still fuckin’ up my night

Bad bitch with me, she don’t need a light

Heart so cold, wrist so bright

If I crash right now, I’m feelin’ alright

Fast love, fake friends, no shame

Too numb to feel what I can’t escape

She know my name, don’t know my pain

Still alive, still alive, okay

I got demons that party with me

They don’t leave when the sun come up

Every girl think she can save me

I just fuck it all up

I don’t mean to be heartless

I just learned how to cope

When you grow up in the dark

You scared of real hope

Liquor talk louder than my thoughts

Pills make peace that I never bought

They say slow down, I speed it up

If life a bitch, then I beat it up

I don’t trust love, I trust time

Time show me everybody lie

If I die young, don’t cry for me

I felt everything inside

Still alive, still fuckin’ up my night

Bad bitch with me, she glow in the lights

Heart so cold, wrist so bright

Still alive, yeah, still alive

If tomorrow gone, I lived my way

Loved too hard, made the same mistakes

Still alive, still stuck in my phase

No brakes, no fear, okay