Bury My Past

Yeah

404…

Look, I don’t talk much ‘cause nobody listened

All these voices in my head got me wishin’ I was missin’…

Gone…

They don’t see the scars, just the smile that I fake

Every damn night got my soul wide awake

I was only sixteen, they said “man up” — wait

How you cope with the trauma when it’s never gonna break?

Yeah, I put on a face, but inside I was dying

Nobody believed me, they all thought I was lying

Now I’m numb to the pain, got a heart made of iron

But even iron breaks when the pressure multiplies in

Cold sweats, can’t rest, feelin’ cursed

Got pain in my chest like I’m trapped in a hearse

Used to pray it’d stop, now I write another verse

Tellin’ God if I’m next, just make sure it don’t hurt…

Now I’m runnin’ from the past like it’s chasin’ me down

Thought I buried all the pain but it’s diggin’ me out

All these voices in my head got me spinnin’ around

If you felt what I feel, you’d be beggin’ to drown

PTSD, I got war in my brain

It’s a fight every night just to not go insane

All these pills, all these thoughts, all this bottled-up rage

But I smile in the mirror like I’m fine — fake face

I remember every night I was cryin’ in the dark

With a blade in my hand, yeah, the steel left a mark

Said I’d never be enough, said I’d never be smart

Now they playin’ all my songs and they callin’ me a star

But fame don’t heal what you felt as a kid

No therapist can reach where the pain really lives

Yeah, I’ve changed, I admit, but the memories stick

Every “you’ll be okay” never did nothin’ quick

Yeah, I’m tired of pretendin’, I’m tired of the lies

Tired of actin’ like I’m good when I’m dead inside

I’ve been battlin’ these demons with a mic and a rhyme

But the devil keep laughin’ like “you runnin’ outta time”

Now I’m runnin’ from the past like it’s chasin’ me down

Thought I buried all the pain but it’s diggin’ me out

All these voices in my head got me spinnin’ around

If you felt what I feel, you’d be beggin’ to drown

PTSD, I got war in my brain

It’s a fight every night just to not go insane

All these pills, all these thoughts, all this bottled-up rage

But I smile in the mirror like I’m fine — fake face

So if I disappear, just know that I tried

Tried to heal, tried to feel, tried to stay alive

But the weight of it all got me breakin’ inside

And the silence is louder than screamin’ goodbyes

Yeah…

This for the ones who feel the same

You ain’t alone in the pain

404 Leon…

We survive — through the flame.