[Intro] Yeah 404… Look, I don’t talk much ‘cause nobody listened All these voices in my head got me wishin’ I was missin’… Gone… [Verse 1] They don’t see the scars, just the smile that I fake Every damn night got my soul wide awake I was only sixteen, they said “man up” — wait How you cope with the trauma when it’s never gonna break? Yeah, I put on a face, but inside I was dying Nobody believed me, they all thought I was lying Now I’m numb to the pain, got a heart made of iron But even iron breaks when the pressure multiplies in Cold sweats, can’t rest, feelin’ cursed Got pain in my chest like I’m trapped in a hearse Used to pray it’d stop, now I write another verse Tellin’ God if I’m next, just make sure it don’t hurt… [Chorus] Now I’m runnin’ from the past like it’s chasin’ me down Thought I buried all the pain but it’s diggin’ me out All these voices in my head got me spinnin’ around If you felt what I feel, you’d be beggin’ to drown PTSD, I got war in my brain It’s a fight every night just to not go insane All these pills, all these thoughts, all this bottled-up rage But I smile in the mirror like I’m fine — fake face [Verse 2] I remember every night I was cryin’ in the dark With a blade in my hand, yeah, the steel left a mark Said I’d never be enough, said I’d never be smart Now they playin’ all my songs and they callin’ me a star But fame don’t heal what you felt as a kid No therapist can reach where the pain really lives Yeah, I’ve changed, I admit, but the memories stick Every “you’ll be okay” never did nothin’ quick Yeah, I’m tired of pretendin’, I’m tired of the lies Tired of actin’ like I’m good when I’m dead inside I’ve been battlin’ these demons with a mic and a rhyme But the devil keep laughin’ like “you runnin’ outta time” [Chorus] Now I’m runnin’ from the past like it’s chasin’ me down Thought I buried all the pain but it’s diggin’ me out All these voices in my head got me spinnin’ around If you felt what I feel, you’d be beggin’ to drown PTSD, I got war in my brain It’s a fight every night just to not go insane All these pills, all these thoughts, all this bottled-up rage But I smile in the mirror like I’m fine — fake face [Bridge] So if I disappear, just know that I tried Tried to heal, tried to feel, tried to stay alive But the weight of it all got me breakin’ inside And the silence is louder than screamin’ goodbyes [Outro] Yeah… This for the ones who feel the same You ain’t alone in the pain 404 Leon… We survive — through the flame.

Bury My Past