Your Silence Is Loud

Ah, ah…

I wanted love

You wanted something to escape in

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I wanted love, you wanted fantasy

I wanted trust, you couldn’t handle me

I scream for you, you never answer me

Your silence is loud, it’s killing me

I can’t feel your heartbeat anymore

Don’t say you love me, say it’s war

I’m on my knees, still begging please

Your silence is loud, it’s deafening

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Go ahead, tell me I’m the problem

While his hands don’t even care where you’ve been

Say I’m dramatic, say I’m toxic

While you fall for a guy who won’t listen

You’re in love with the feeling of feeling used

Say you hate me, yeah, bet, that’s cool

You don’t want the drama, want the bruise

You’d rather feel pain than the truth

I fell too fast, yeah, that’s a fact

Attachment issues, losing my grasp

I was starving for a little bit of light

Now I’m blinded—what kind of love is that?

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Will you hear me if I scream your name?

Or only notice when I fade away?

If I stay quiet, will you stay the same?

Or is silence how you run away?

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I wanted love, you wanted fantasy

I wanted trust, you couldn’t handle me

I scream for you, you never answer me

Your silence is loud, it’s killing me

I can’t trust a soul, I can’t feel at all

Don’t say you love me, just let me fall

I cried every night, now I barely breathe

Your silence is loud when you look at me

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Will you save me if I break down now?

Or blame me for bleeding in public crowds?

When the world feels sick and the streets feel cold

And I’m fighting demons you’ll never know

Friends say I’m slipping, say I’ve changed

Too much distance, too much space

I was anxious how I looked in your eyes

Now I’m watching pieces of my life go by

I can’t help that I still might love you

You’re real nice, but I don’t trust you

You want him now, he might break you too

I can’t save you—I barely make it through

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If I kick and scream, will you hear me now?

If I say nothing, will you figure it out?

I gave you my heart, you gave me doubt

Your silence is louder than screaming out loud

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I wanted love, you wanted fantasy

I wanted truth, you ran from me

I’m letting go, but it still hurts me

Your silence is loud—

And that’s what broke me