Pulsar Star

When I find a reason to care

Can I find a reason to stay there?

It’s so here then it’s gone

I haven’t felt right in so long

My heavy head is spinning

Thinking of every way I’m not winning

My negativity radiates

My mood in form of radio waves

I’m pulsing five stages

It’s really outrageous

It’s hard to repair a broken heart

When you keep going back to the start

Like the days of the week

I get stronger then feel weak

Precise bands of waves

Echoing how I behave

I still love you, I hate you

I’d give anything for you

I miss you, I don’t need you

The process starts again

My thoughts compress to a core so dense

Time moves slower in my presence

A minute like a passing year

Time heals but yet I’m stuck here

Cycle overthinkin’, my core shrinkin’,

Feeling like sinkin’, look without blinkin’

just how I been, kick in the shin

Then count to ten, I lost a friend

I can’t pretend, lost money to lend

I broke at the bend, wait out the end

To just amend, the time I spend

For life and happiness to blend

I’m pulsing five stages

It’s really outrageous

It’s hard to repair a broken heart

When you keep going back to the start

Like the days of the week

I get stronger then feel weak

Precise bands of waves

Echoing how I behave

I still love you, I hate you

I’d give anything for you

I miss you, I don’t need you

The process starts again

Seven straight days of suffering

Fire fight five ways of flighting

Tired times two I’m over it

Bit by bit teach a dog to sit

It’s in me I know, frozen cold like snow

Thaw the thinking the dog I’ll show

I still love you, I hate you

I’d give anything for you

I miss you, I don’t need you

The process starts again