My Last Exhale

Hook

This my last exhale, I don’t know what’s next

Still breathin’, but I feel half fuckin’ dead

I tried to heal, but I’m still obsessed

With all these demons screamin’ in my head

Last exhale, yeah, I’m still here

But the fucked up thoughts never disappear

I made it out, but I’m still scared

‘Cause the pain followed me fuckin’ everywhere

Verse 1

I been drownin’ in my thoughts since day one

Tryna stay sober, still feel fuckin’ numb

I kicked the drugs I used to love

But they still whisper when shit get rough

I survived nights I thought would kill me

Smilin’ for the world, dyin’ internally

They say I’m stronger now, I guess that’s true

But strong don’t mean I ain’t still bruised

I buried friends, I buried parts of me

Buried emotions I was scared to see

I learned to live with the fuckin’ pain

But it rains in my head every time I sleep

I chased the high ‘cause I hated the low

Now I hate myself for wantin’ both

I said I’d quit more times than I can count

Still hear the pill bottle when it ain’t around

Pre-Hook

I survived shit that shattered my brain

But survival don’t mean I’m okay

I learned to breathe through the fuckin’ ache

But every breath still feels like a mistake

Hook

This my last exhale, I don’t know what’s next

Still breathin’, but I feel half fuckin’ dead

I tried to heal, but I’m still obsessed

With all these demons screamin’ in my head

Last exhale, yeah, I’m still here

But the fucked up thoughts never disappear

I made it out, but I’m still scared

‘Cause the pain followed me fuckin’ everywhere

Verse 2

I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna feel

Every emotion hittin’ too fuckin’ real

I numbed myself just to fuckin’ cope

Now I’m sober starin’ at no hope

I thought success would save my soul

Thought money would fix the fuckin’ hole

But demons don’t leave when you glow

They just lay low, then take control

I still crave the numb on my worst days

Still miss the peace I felt while faded

I hate that part of me won’t die

The part that wants one last goodbye

I beat the drugs, but the war ain’t done

‘Cause the hardest fight’s when the high is gone

I won the battle, lost my calm

Now I’m fightin’ myself just to carry on

Bridge / Outro

If this is healing, it hurts like hell

If this is livin’, I’m failin’ still

I climbed out the fuckin’ wishing well

But I hear it echo when it’s quiet

This my last exhale, not my end

Just proof I lived through hell again

The demons talk, I fuckin’ tell ‘em no

I’m still breathin’…

Barely, though