You wish

Don’t follow me.
Don’t copy me.
Don’t even breathe near me.
It might bite.
I woke up feelin’ like violence in a velvet robe,
bit down on a fake gold chain 'til my gums bled hope.
Switch gears mid-prayer, say “amen” then laugh,
put the car in reverse and drive through my past.
Too clean?
I’ll stain it.
Too safe?
I’ll break it.
I don’t flirt with chaos —
I ghostride it naked.
"YOU WISH YOU WERE CRAZY LIKE ME"
They said “take a breath.”
I took a molotov.
They said “let it go.”
I made a sculpture out of spite and cough drops.
Art school dropout,
life school burnout,
I drink from the faucet of my own doubt.
This ain’t music —
this a seizure in surround sound.
This a heart warming note
written in mushroom cloud font.
YOU WISH you could feel this numb.
YOU WISH you could fake this fun.
YOU WISH you could snap like I snap —
Then sleep like a saint while the walls collapse.
Heartbeat like a chainsaw…
Thoughts spiral in Morse code…
If I vanish mid-sentence,
tell ‘em: "he just overflowed."
I’m not stable.
I’m not broken.
I’m not yours.
I’m not spoken.
You can quote me wrong —
it still sounds right.
I glitch like god
on a bad night.

Emo trap, lo-fi, post-grunge trap, dark rap