Heavy Hands

Yeah…

Some things don’t leave you…

No matter how far you run…

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I been carrying ghosts I don’t talk about

Every wrong turn got me walking routes

That I can’t escape, that I can’t outrun

Like I’m chasing peace but it never comes

Got mistakes in my past like they carved in stone

Every night I replay what I should’ve known

Every word I said that I can’t take back

Every bridge I burned, yeah I feel that crack

People say “move on,” like it’s that easy

But the weight I hold still tries to beat me

I smile in public, keep it all contained

But inside my chest, it’s a different pain

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I got weight I can’t drop, no matter how I try

Every step forward feels like a lie

I wanna fix what I broke back then

But I can’t go back to where I’ve been

Yeah I carry it all, yeah it’s stuck in me

Every scar, every fault, every memory

If I could rewind, I’d change my path

Now I’m stuck with the weight of my past

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I’ve said things I regret, yeah I own that

Left people in pain, can’t control that

Now it echoes back every time I breathe

Like the past got a grip and it won’t release

Tried to bury it deep, tried to let it die

But it lives in my thoughts every time I lie

To myself like “I’m fine,” but I know I’m not

Got a war in my head that I always fought

I wanna be better, I swear I do

But the man in the mirror don’t feel brand new

Still see the same flaws, still feel that shame

Still hear my name tied to my mistakes

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I got weight I can’t drop, no matter how I try

Every step forward feels like a lie

I wanna fix what I broke back then

But I can’t go back to where I’ve been

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If I could go back… I would change it all

Every wrong decision, every time I fall

But life don’t rewind, it just moves ahead

And I’m stuck with the things that I never said

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So I stand right here with the weight in hand

Try to be a better, stronger man

Not perfect, no—I still slip, still fall

But I’m learning to face it instead of stall

Maybe healing ain’t letting it disappear

Maybe it’s learning to carry it year by year

Turning regret into something real

Letting the scars remind me to heal

I can’t erase what I’ve done before

But I can choose who I am moving forward

Piece by piece, yeah I’m building right

Even in darkness, I’m chasing light

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I got weight I can’t drop, but I’m learning to stand

With the past in my heart and hope in my hands

I can’t fix every wrong, I can’t change it all

But I won’t be the man that I was before

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Yeah…

Still carrying it…

But I’m not the same…