Relapse

Verse 1
I said I’d never end up here again
Swore I’d finally make amends
But the moment it got hard
I went running back to where I’ve been

Every promise that I made
Faded somewhere in the grey
Now I’m staring at the mess
That I swore I’d never recreate

Pre-Chorus
I thought I felt you yesterday
But now you’re further away

Chorus
I tried to change but I collapsed
Right back into my past
Every step I took ahead
Pulled me further back

Now I’m drowning in the same mistakes
That I swore I wouldn’t make
Tell me why I always break
When I try to believe?

Verse 2
I heard your voice inside my head
Telling me I’m not dead
But the silence hit again
And I forgot what you said

Maybe I just needed proof
Something I could hold onto
Cause believing in the dark
Feels like something I can’t do

Pre-Chorus
I thought I felt you yesterday
But now you’re further away

Chorus
I tried to change but I collapsed
Right back into my past
Every step I took ahead
Pulled me further back

Now I’m drowning in the same mistakes
That I swore I wouldn’t make
Tell me why I always break
When I try to believe?

Bridge (yelled)
I HATE THE WAY I ALWAYS RUN
THE SECOND SOMETHING COMES UNDONE
I HAD A CHANCE AND LET IT DIE
NOW I’M JUST BACK HERE WONDERING WHY

EVERY TIME I TRY TO STAY
I ALWAYS FIND A WAY
TO TEAR IT ALL APART AGAIN
AT THE END OF THE DAY

Final Chorus (desperate)
I tried to change but I collapsed
Right back into my past
Every step I took ahead
Pulled me further back

If you’re still listening to me
Through everything I’ve been
Don’t let this be the end
Of what I almost believed

Falling back into old habits after hope—heavy emo rock about relapse, guilt, and losing faith all over again.