Stop Counting On Me

(Intro - spoken word)

“I’m really tired of this shit man. Why the fuck do I do this to myself again and again?! I do SO good… and then I just fuck it up again.”

“It’s exhausting…”

(Verse 1)

Packed the bags, told myself it’s the last time

Threw the pills down the sink, drew a hard line

Three days clean, I can feel my heart beat

Looking in the mirror, standing on my own two feet

But the air feels thin and the walls are closing in

And a whisper says "where have you been?"

It’s a roadblock, a detour, a sudden U-turn

Just a little taste, I thought I could learn....

(Chorus)

And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs

Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs

It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream

Trying to swim in a freezing stream

Round and round, the cycle brings me low

Trying hard, but I don't know how to let go.

(Verse 2)

Can’t count the fingers on my own hand

Texts from you that I don’t understand

Said I’d meet you there, and I’d be okay

But I’m too wasted for a social mistake

I’m fighting with demons who make

Every decision of my living day

Just please stop counting on me

(Please stop counting on me)

(Chorus)

And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs

Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs

It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream

Trying to swim in a freezing stream

Round and round, the cycle brings me low

Trying hard, but I don't know how to let go.

(Bridge)

They say "one day at a time," I’m taking one hour

But I can’t fight the urge!! and I have no power!

I close my eyes, and I’m back at the start

Everything inside of me is falling apart

I want to breathe, help me, I want to fight

But I fall deeper, every fucking night.

(Chorus - Softly, acoustic)

And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs

Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs

It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream

Trying to swim in a freezing stream

Round and round, the cycle brings me low

Trying hard, but I don't know how to let go.

(Outro)

But I don't know how to let go.

Just one more time...

But I don't know how to let go.

One more time...

Ohhhh one more time!!

I can’t hide!!!

Mmm I don't know how to let go

Just please stop counting on me