Love Deserving

I learned to stay quiet when I needed to scream

Got good at pretending I don’t feel anything

Let people love me just enough, then leave

Like I was something temporary

I held their words like they were truth in my hands

Every “you’re too much” turned into who I am

But I’m getting tired of shrinking to fit

A love that never really exists

Maybe I’m not broken, maybe I’m just bruised

From giving all my heart to people passing through

I deserve a love that doesn’t disappear at night

Doesn’t make me question if I’m worth the fight

I want arms that hold me like I’m not too much

Not just someone they can touch

I deserve a love that doesn’t come and go

Doesn’t leave me standing in the cold alone

I’ve been asking God what I’m doing wrong

But maybe I’ve been worthy all along

I memorize the silence when they pull away

Blame it on myself like it’s my DNA

Like if I was prettier, quieter, less

Maybe they would’ve stayed

But I see it clearer now than I did before

I was giving everything, they gave me war

And I kept calling it love just to survive

While it slowly killed me inside

I’m done chasing shadows that don’t choose me back

Done building my home on emotional cracks

I deserve a love that doesn’t disappear at night

Doesn’t make me question if I’m worth the fight

I want arms that hold me like I’m not too much

Not just someone they can touch

I deserve a love that doesn’t come and go

Doesn’t leave me standing in the cold alone

I’ve been asking God what I’m doing wrong

But maybe I’ve been worthy all along

Maybe love’s not something I have to earn

Maybe it’s not pain every time it burns

Maybe there’s a version of me they’ll see

And stay…

Or maybe I just need to learn to believe

That I’m already everything I

I deserve a love that finally feels like home

Not another night staring at my phone

I want something real, something that won’t fade

Not another almost, not another mistake

I deserve a love that sees me, every part

Doesn’t flinch when it gets to my heart

I’ve been asking God what I’m doing wrong…

But I think I’ve been worthy all along

Yeah… I think I’ve been worthy all along