[trap][gangsta d&b rap][dark rave] [Raspy husky female] [Verse 1] So sick so stuck in bed illnesses appeared I'm scared Everyday back sore Sleep off that back pain & more couldnt stay awake Age 12 me & my dad half moved 26 years No relief So I tried something Which turned out to be the one thing to truly help me & even though it's hard to admit It's my truth no matter how you look at it You may not agree Might see me differently But all I have for proof Is the me standing infront of you I dont use it to escape But for relief from the pain & gain The energy I need To heal & learn to regulate Gave my body a break From surviving in that state [Hook] Its hard to admit When others associated with it Is seen as all the same A drug addict that should hang their head in shame But I needed healing Needed to find the reason I was feeling So sick in pain hidden unseen Its scary to say But I used methamphetamine [Verse 2] Mental health fooled my mind To think I'm the broken kind I would try my best But I was so sore in pain & depressed Showing it, I felt guilty Hiding it used all of my energy I became unbearable & needy But its cos I was so tired So sleepy & weepy & an emotional heapy Nobody was allowed to see But I wouldve done anything to be free Pain in silence every day Listening to people say she's just faking it, she's actually fine She's a hypochondriac She exaggerates all the time She's lazy its manipulation To control you & the situation Thats why she pretends to be sick Don't be a fool don't fall for it It's sad People thought I was like that Pretending to be sick Trading life for this I could never understand why Someone would even do that cos all I Do is lay here & cry & cry & try not to think that I wish I was dead But hey.. yea. Its just all in my head [Hook] [Bridge][husky female gangsta trap rap][fast] If used as intended It probably would Help some people like me, feel seen & understood If medical professionals could Actually hear me They might see I found something Medically it should Be bad but in me it does good Cos like with everything with care & moderation Whats not helpful to some Can be, in another situation Its not the thing its mostly the user Those who do too much, over do it & abuse it The good it does, doesnt matter anymore Cos they're brains didnt care They chose to ignore Thats what self control is for So yes I use methamphetamine But different to how some do on the street Those you give the crackhead name Usually have stayed awake for too many days Gone- Waaayyy too long Without food Starving their body into a bad mood Psychosis paranoia, scattered & delirious Noone sees you as serious Cos oh - oh yea "theyre just on meth" But same would happen to anyone without rest No food & nothing to drink Its not just the drug, like you might think Most people use it to run from shit But jokes on them it can heighten it Thats when they get paranoid Cos somehow they get what they tried to avoid Makes em crazy angry & annoyed [Hook]

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