I Hate Being Me

(Intro)
can’t shut it up
can’t get away
even silence feels too loud

i’m stuck in here

(Verse 1)
I wake up inside my head
already arguing with myself
every thought talks over the last
no exit, no mute, no help

I replay things that don’t matter
like they’re evidence in court
I’m guilty before the day begins
tired of fighting thoughts I can’t abort

(Pre-Chorus)
they say “breathe”
like that fixes it
like air can silence this

(Chorus)
I hate being me
I hate being in my head
every second feels crowded
by the things I never said

I hate being me
I can’t outrun my mind
I don’t need saving
I just want a break from inside

(Verse 2)
I overthink every silence
read tone that isn’t there
build disasters out of nothing
and then live inside the scare

I want to switch myself off
just long enough to rest
but even sleep won’t take me
my thoughts follow to the bed

(Pre-Chorus)
people say “you’re fine”
like it’s visible
like this noise is optional

(Chorus)
I hate being me
I hate being in my head
every moment is a battle
with the things I never said

I hate being me
I can’t shut it down
I smile in real life
while my mind tears me around

(Bridge)
I don’t want to disappear
I just don’t want to be here
inside this skull
inside this loop

no peace
no pause
just me vs me

(Break)
I wish I could crawl out
leave my thoughts behind
borrow someone else’s quiet
for a night

(Chorus)
I hate being me
but I’m still breathing
so I guess I stay

I hate being me
but I don’t know another way

if there’s a version of me
that doesn’t hurt like this
tell me where she is

(Outro)
still stuck
still loud
still me

female,alt rock/emo,electro pop/edm,synth undertones,technic,emotional,strong vocals,fast paced,beats,808s,dubstep