Chasing the Dawn

Living in the shadows, can’t break the chains,

Every meeting's a battlefield, replaying old pains.

Vacationing in memories, nowhere to roam,

I just want to pack my bags, find my way back home.

Hotel Ottawa, memories collide,

Budget planners with faces like ghosts I've tried to hide.

Every number’s a reminder, every word a decree,

It's hard to breathe, hard to break free.

Too many voices, too much control,

Every single session taking its toll.

I want to step forward but I’m trapped in rewind,

Searching for solace I just can’t seem to find.

I'm tired, oh so tired, of the past chasing me down,

Walking these same halls wearing this same crown.

Probation's a prison, can't escape my own mind,

I just want to move forward, leave this mess behind.

Flashbacks hit like storms, lightning in my chest,

I’m clawing through the memories, I just need a rest.

Let me heal, let me rise, let me find my own way,

Stop living in the echoes of yesterday’s decay.

I dream of wide roads, endless stretches of sky,

A job that calls to me, a life where I can fly.

But here I’m a ghost in this bureaucratic haze,

The future feels fuzzy, lost in budget maze.

Feeling like I’m running, but I’m stuck in one place,

Trying to reframe every fear that I face.

I’ve learned to survive, but I want to thrive,

Need to shed the past, learn how to revive.

I'm tired, oh so tired, of the past chasing me down,

Walking these same halls wearing this same crown.

Probation's a prison, can't escape my own mind,

I just want to move forward, leave this mess behind.

So here’s to the fight, to the future I’ll crave,

I’ll break through these locks, I won’t be a slave.

No more Hotel Ottawa, I’ll soon see the dawn,

With every step forward, I’m finally drawn to move on.