Always the same remix

I don't want to feel, regardless it's always the same
I can only rescue you as long as you'll let me babe
I play hero so well you can hardly tell I'm so afraid
I'd rather lose you now than love you, I'm to blame
I've always been this big of a mess you see
I don't need to lie to you, I promise I'll change
The way you look at me now tells me the truth
It's too late to go back and do it over again
You can't erase what you seen, it's as bad as it seems
My triggers get the best of me, I get so emotional
My feelings run so deep, all of these thingsjust seem to bother me
It's never been a secret I could keep, it finally shows
I run away so quickly, the less you know of me the better
The real me, makes you weak at the knees, but during the same 
You look away from me in shame, thinking you been deceived 
Not in a good way, toxic has its rough way with me again
I can't change my tone for you, can't change my face either 
Reading along  the surface, tip trip and fall till I'm gone 
Did it really happen, did I imagine it all
TIll I shatter and break, I'll be your mistake
And you can be with my wake up call 
Not to get attached, not to love again
People have needs that I'll never meet
There's no point in trying to love mw
[Guitar Solo]

Dark emotional charged  Dark,Chill R&B