Not Holy

[Verse 1]
I crawl out of the darkness, hands against the floor
Dragging every shadow I’ve been hiding evermore
Calling your name like a sinner in the rain
Every breath I take just echoes back your pain

I hear the silence screaming louder than before
Every broken memory bleeding through the door
I wasn’t made for heaven, I was built to fall
Still I reach for you like you could end it all

[Pre-Chorus]
I hear an echo of my past
Breathing life into my veins
Every whisper pulls me back
Every step repeats the same

[Hook]
On my knees, I’m not holy
Begging something just to hold me
Wake me up from this nightmare
I’m suffocating in thin air

Ancestors, can you hear me?
Is there mercy left for me?
I’m not chosen, I’m just lonely
On my knees, I’m not holy

[Verse 2]
There’s a weight inside my chest I can’t outrun
Every prayer I ever whispered comes undone
Your voice still lingers like a ghost beneath my skin
Pulling me back to where it all begins

I tried to bury every piece I couldn’t save
But they rise like hands reaching from the grave
I taste the fear every time I breathe you in
Like loving you was always my first sin

[Pre-Chorus]
I hear an echo of my past
Breathing life into my veins
Every scar begins to speak
And it calls me by your name

[Hook]
On my knees, I’m not holy
Begging something just to hold me
Wake me up from this nightmare
I’m suffocating in thin air

Ancestors, can you hear me?
Is there mercy left for me?
I’m not chosen, I’m just lonely
On my knees, I’m not holy

[Bridge]
If I drown, will you remember?
If I break, will you still stay?
Or am I just a ghost you whisper
When the light begins to fade?

I’m clawing at the sky for something
But it never answers me
Just the sound of my own heartbeat
Fading into memory

[Final Hook]
On my knees, I’m not holy
Still I’m begging, don’t let go of me
Wake me up from this nightmare
I’m suffocating, I swear

Ancestors, I am calling
Hear me now before I’m falling
I’m not sacred, I’m just lonely
On my knees… I’m not holy

Cinematic tribal rock, female