Intrusive thoughts remix 2

It ain't even really your fault,
When you leave,
When you can't answer your phone
We don't speak,
Intrusive thoughts, I seem to believe
Whispering out at me from the darkest corners of my mind 
They're chasing me, they're just chasing me
They just all make sense to me, connecting 
Facts straight from fiction, in my damn brain
Creating so much friction with my reality
Every single heartache I caused;
Because when you say you love me, 
it makes me feel some type of way, 
but I want to believe 
I can promise I will never say I'm done,
But every day, I'm done again,
 I'm just a little love struck, 
clearly I get a little messy,
 I can't handle any type of stress,
 I get so far off in my own head and then the spiral begins again, and that's when I go off the deep end and whoops, I snap, I lash out in ways I've never been proud of things just fucking upset me, its just everything is coming out now, can't figure out why i have to shout, I'm a pain in the ass, but I love you no doubt, I say fucked up things, nothing I believe and not at all how I mean,
You know I love you all the same
You're the only one that I want, it just fucking gets me, its not even your fault, I'm spiraling out again, a favorite I can never have enough of apparently , it gets me, every time you leave 

Chill trap horror ore with heavy bass drops, male