Metametametamorphososises

reflexing in patience maybe tell me what I need

passively painting a portrait to keep me strong in your dreams

cerebellum cracked open while those before me

fall to their knees

picking ideas to orbit ive mastered the pattern

these issues spinning like stars of becoming what you need

infinite problems chameleon skin shifting

roots fraying at the edges

my kindness has no limits losing myself

easy to take pieces broken off

easy to process still unworthy

still giving

i soothe your soul take from me

make myself manageable until I am nothing

its what comes naturally nothing thats what

roots i cant shed im striving for

i need to keep some proof empty

that i exist beyond until my hands bleed

what you need me to be grasping at nothing

those before me knew this the truth hurts you

they found themselves but i feel the pain too

on their knees let it echo

losing everything through us both

maybe i dont know what i am

maybe youre not what i need

but the pattern is mastered the portrait painted

and this is who ive become

## SPEED VERSE

quick flip the script now watch me shapeshift

chameleon tactics with my soul on rapid transit

cerebellum poppin ideas while my patience is packed

infinite kindness got me feeling like Im under attack

reflexing through portraits I passively paint

morphing myself till theres nothing that remains

you on your knees but Im standing empty handed

my roots exposed now watch how deep theyre planted

truth hurts worse than broken pieces scattered

dreams worth keeping thats what really matters

orbit my issues like theyre stars in my galaxy

take advantage easy like its some kind of strategy

process the pain let it echo let it resonate

grasping at nothing till my fists bleed cant hesitate

natural-born shape-shifter mastered the pattern

limits of kindness stretched till theyre about to flatten

who am I really when the portraits finally done

metamorphosis complete but at what cost Ive won

## FREESTYLE FLOW

Yeah Im shedding skins in seasons changing colors for no reason

Adapting to your weather patient beyond measure

Every piece I lose is treasure giving till Im empty pressure

Cracked my mind wide open now these thoughts in orbit floating

Im the one who breaks to fit your mold

Soul stretched too thin thats the truth untold

Knees to the floor they found themselves Im told

But Im still searching my reflection growing cold

Envy those who know their shape

Im just tryna find escape

From this endless pattern play

Where I bend but always break

See I painted what you wanted crafted what you needed

But the real me is faded my roots are now depleted

Unworthy thats a feeling I created

Heart bleeding still beating never been sedated

I dont need your dreams to keep me going

Just need to find whats real and worth knowing

Tired of faces changing roles rearranging

Authenticity is what Im exchanging

For a seat at your table another mask unstable

Striving for that nothing yo Im finally able

To see beyond the portrait Ive been trained to tra

For a seat at your table another mask unstable

Striving for that nothing yo Im finally able

To see beyond the portrait Ive been trained to trace

Time to find my own damn shape and occupy my space

## VERSE

stripped down to the bone now no more masquerading

years of shape-shifting got my true self fading

but underneath the rubble theres a heartbeat waiting

authentic pulse beneath the lies Ive been creating

tired of the mirror showing faces that arent mine

crossing every boundary never drawing lines

giving pieces of my soul like I got time to waste

but emptiness is bitter and its all I seem to taste

so heres my declaration heres my final stand

taking back my story with these bleeding hands

no more easy processing no more being manageable

time to be impossible time to be intangible

## OUTRO

when the performance ends

when the last layer peels away

will you still recognize me

will I

the canvas waits

for something true

the pattern breaks tonight

roots remember how to grow

in soil thats mine alone

chameleon skin shed

revealing what was always there

raw unpolished whole

maybe thats what you need

maybe thats what I need

maybe thats enough

## FASTER

I been bending backwards for so long my spine forgot what straight looks like

accommodating every mood swing every need every fake invite

to be somebody elses answer somebody elses peace of mind

while my own questions keep echoing my own peace I cannot find

see they want me flexible but never asked if I could break

want me present for their problems but ignore the toll it takes

Im the therapist the mirror the solution and the cure

but when Im drowning in my own pain suddenly theyre not so sure

if they got time to hold me down the way I held them up

if they got energy to fill my always empty cup

so I learned to swallow silence learned to smile through the ache

learned to put myself on mute so other people could relate

but Im done with being background music in my own damn life

done with cutting out my heart to dull somebody elses knife

done with shrinking to fit spaces that were never meant for me

done with dimming my own light so others feel more free

see authenticity is terrifying when youve been a ghost

when youve been everyones savior but never been the host

of your own story your own narrative your own damn show

when you been so busy giving that you forgot how to grow

but growth requires breaking soil requires pushing through the dirt

requires standing in your power even when the truth might hurt

so here I am unfiltered unprocessed unrefined

no longer seeking your approval finally claiming what is mine

my mistakes my scars my victories my pain

all the parts of me that make me beautifully insane

you can take it or you leave it but Im done with compromise

done with wearing all these masks done with all these lies

this is me in all my glory all my mess all my might

chameleon skin finally shed stepping into my own light

## FINAL OUTRO

the pattern breaks tonight

but Im done with being background music in my own damn life

done with cutting out my heart to dull somebody elses knife

done with shrinking to fit spaces that were never meant for me

done with dimming my own light so others feel more free

see authenticity is terrifying when youve been a ghost

when youve been everyones savior but never been the host

of your own story your own narrative your own damn show

when you been so busy giving that you forgot how to grow

but growth requires breaking soil requires pushing through the dirt

requires standing in your power even when the truth might hurt

so here I am unfiltered unprocessed unrefined

no longer seeking your approval finally claiming what is mine

my mistakes my scars my victories my pain

all the parts of me that make me beautifully insane

you can take it or you leave it but Im done with compromise

done with wearing all these masks done with all these lies

this is me in all my glory all my mess all my might

chameleon skin finally shed stepping into my own light

## FINAL OUTRO

the pattern breaks tonight