Double Lives

Verse 1

I learned love like a warning sign

Flashing red in the back of my mind

Every smile feels rehearsed somehow

Like a script I don’t trust right now

You say “stay,” but I hear “goodbye”

Even truth starts to sound like a lie

Got my heart in a locked glass case

Every touch leaves a fingerprint trace

Pre-Chorus

I don’t mean to doubt your light

But I’ve been burned by “forever” before

Chorus

They say love’s supposed to feel like home

But mine feels like a war zone

Every word got a shadow behind

Every promise feels misaligned

I wanna believe, but I don’t survive

In a world where we’re living double lives

Yeah, I’m trying, but it cuts too deep

When trust don’t come easy to me

Verse 2

I see ghosts in the things you say

Hear echoes of yesterday

Every “I care” hits a nerve inside

Like I’m bracing for the other side

I don’t wanna paint you the same

But my past keeps calling your name

And I hate how it rewires truth

Turns your love into something to prove

Pre-Chorus

I’m not proud of the walls I’ve made

But they kept me breathing before

Chorus

They say love’s supposed to feel like home

But mine feels like a war zone

Every word got a shadow behind

Every promise feels misaligned

I wanna believe, but I don’t survive

In a world where we’re living double lives

Yeah, I’m trying, but it cuts too deep

When trust don’t come easy to me

Bridge

Maybe not everybody’s the same

Maybe not every fire’s a flame

That’s meant to burn me down again

Maybe I could learn to bend

But right now I’m stuck in between

What I felt and what I’ve seen

Want your truth, but I still defend

Against a hurt that don’t want to end

Final Chorus (softer, then builds)

They say love’s supposed to feel like home

I’m just learning how to let that grow

Every fear got a voice in me

But I’m trying to set it free

I wanna believe, maybe I’ll arrive

Somewhere past all these double lives

Yeah, I’m healing, even if it’s slow

Learning trust isn’t all or no