[Intro]
I am using my imagination
I am using my imagination
Just to stay here
Just to stay breathing
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[Verse 1]
I don’t know how much more I can take
Sunlight don’t fix what’s bending my shape
Weed makes me panic, meds blur the frame
Tell me how you love life when you sick in the brain
Two thousand miles and I’m still awake
Scrolling your ghost like a wound I replay
Showed you my colors, you left, now it’s gray
I build up hate but I hope you okay
I’m not — I just want an escape
I pop and my ego deflates
I stare at myself and surrender to sound
Just to find out I was fake
Smile on tight but I’m pissed
I don’t show it, I swallow the script
Close friends don’t even know I exist
In this version of me I resist
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[Pre-Chorus]
I feel like I might disappear
Something inside screaming loud in my ear
Can’t stay happy, it never stays here
Every good moment dissolves into fear
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[Chorus]
I feel like I might fall apart
Don’t know what I’m running from
Something heavy inside my heart
Can’t stay bright, never good for long
Thinking maybe it’s you I lost
Nostalgia echoing back
Do you ever miss what we were
Or am I the only one stuck in the past?
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[Verse 2]
Tab in my pocket, excuse to float
Fabricate hope in a chemical coat
Beat in my chest going mono and slow
I replay every “what if” I wrote
Vanity mirror, I don’t recognize
The body I wear, the blur in my eyes
I picture my life in unfinished lines
Like I’m racing a clock I can’t outrun time
Poker face cracking under the weight
Choking on thoughts I don’t wanna translate
I say I’m fine, but the lie don’t stay
It trembles and leaks in the songs I make
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[Bridge]
But I’m still here
Even shaking, I’m still here
Every breath feels borrowed, unclear
But it’s mine, and it means I’m not done
If I bloom, it’ll hurt at first
Growing roots through the dirt and curse
But I’d rather feel pain than nothing at all
So I’m choosing to rise, not fall
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[Final Chorus]
I feel like I might break tonight
But I’m learning to hold my ground
Something inside still wants to fight
Even when silence is screaming loud
If you ever look back at me
Know I tried to become someone
Not a ghost, not a memory
Just a pulse that refused to run
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[Outro]
Bloom to death?
No — bloom through it
Bloom messy
Bloom human
I’m still here
I’m still here
I’m still here