Alone In My Head

Yeah…

Voices in my head don’t sleep no more…

Cold nights, black bottles, loaded thoughts…

Uh…

I been drownin’ in the dark with the bottle by my side,

Everybody say they love me but they vanish when I slide,

Room full of smoke, got the mirror lookin’ cracked,

See a stranger in my face every time I look back.

Pills on the dresser, liquor all over my veins,

Tryna kill the noise but the noise know my name,

Heart turned black from the cuts and betrayal,

Every single memory feel like a closed jail cell.

I got anger in my chest like a bomb bouta blow,

Mind so cold got frost in my soul,

Paranoid thoughts got me clutchin’ all night,

Cause the dark got hands and they squeeze too tight.

Friends turned ghosts, family feel distant,

Smile gettin’ fake, pain gettin’ different,

Every damn day feel a little more numb,

Like the devil at the door sayin’ “you should come.”

I’m alone in my head,

Voices whisper death while I’m layin’ in bed,

Blackout nights, red eyes, no rest,

Pain in my soul and a hole in my chest.

Liquor spillin’, drugs got me movin’ too slow,

Anger in my blood and it’s ready to blow,

Lost in the dark where the cold wind spread,

I’m alive outside but I’m dead in my head.

I been walkin’ through hell with my jaw clenched tight,

Demons in the room every damn night,

Ashes on the floor from the cigarettes burnin’,

Life keep spinnin’ but the rage still turnin’.

Got trauma in my bones, got scars in my skin,

Every bad decision turned another new sin,

I don’t trust love, I don’t trust peace,

Only trust the silence when the chaos release.

People talk tough till the pressure get applied,

Meanwhile I been battlin’ myself inside,

Mind like war, every thought got blood,

Every tear I buried turned pain to mud.

I was built in the storm where the cold hearts live,

Had to lose everything just to learn how to live,

Now I stare at the ceiling with the lights all low,

Thinkin’ maybe nobody ever really know.

And I still hear screams when the room go quiet…

Still feel rage every time I deny it…

Tryna fight myself but the darkness stronger…

Every single night feel a little bit longer…

I’m alone in my head,

Voices whisper death while I’m layin’ in bed,

Blackout nights, red eyes, no rest,

Pain in my soul and a hole in my chest.

Liquor spillin’, drugs got me movin’ too slow,

Anger in my blood and it’s ready to blow,

Lost in the dark where the cold wind spread,

I’m alive outside but I’m dead in my head.

Yeah…

Some people die once…

Some people die every night in their thoughts…

And nobody ever sees it…

Nobody…