[Verse 1]
Your coffee cup still on the sink
Lip print faint
Like it might blink
Drawers half-open
Shirts on the chair
Whole house holding its breath in the air
I talk to doors you used to slam
Argue with the mirror
Call you by name
Every hallway
A failing lung
Every step
Like I weigh a ton
[Chorus]
There’s a black thread in my throat
I keep choking on your ghost
Every word I try to say
Turns to ashes anyway
I’m alive
But breaking slow
In the shape you left below
If this is love after you go
It’s just pain with nowhere to go
[Verse 2]
Your side of the bed’s still cold and flat
I sleep on the edge
Scared of all that
Space you took
Then gave back fast
Like the future was made of glass
Friends say “time
” like it’s a drug
Like the clock hands hand out hugs
But the seconds cut
They carve your name
Tiny knives doing big-scale damage
[Chorus]
There’s a black thread in my throat
I keep choking on your ghost
Every word I try to say
Turns to ashes anyway
I’m alive
But breaking slow
In the shape you left below
If this is love after you go
It’s just pain with nowhere to go
[Bridge]
[Ambient guitars swell
Drums drop to tom-heavy pulse]
I still hear you
In the quiet
In the crack
Between my eyelids (hey)
I still see you
In the riot
Of the nights
I can’t keep silent
[Harsh vocal]
You tore out the sun
Left a silhouette stain
I scrape at my skin just to feel your name
If healing is real
Why’s it burning this bad?
Why does “moving on” feel exactly like collapse?
[Clean vocal reply]
You’re a scar I trace in the dark
Half a wound
Half a work of art
I hate that I love what we lost
I’m counting the cost
I’m counting the cost (oh)
[Chorus]
There’s a black thread in my throat
I keep choking on your ghost
Every word I try to say
Turns to ashes anyway
I’m alive
But breaking slow
In the shape you left below
If this is love after you go
It’s just pain with nowhere to go
[Outro]
So I fold your name into my bones
Walk this world like a cracked gravestone
If grief is just love with nowhere left to run
Then I’ll bleed in the dark ‘til I grow a new sun