[Intro]
All my life
I been mad at somethin'
Teeth tight
Heart black, still pumpin' (yeah)
[Verse 1]
All my life I was swingin' at ghosts
Whole block laughin', I was the joke
Hand-me-down shoes, same two coats
Couldn't trust love, only knew "don't"
Mama in the kitchen, cryin' in code
Daddy in the street, never came home
I was that kid they ain't bring to they folks
Anger in my throat, chokin' on smoke
I remember nights starin' holes in the wall
Prayin' that the pain turn me into somethin' tall
They was throwin' stones, I was stackin' every one
Now they hang around my neck, heavy as the sun (yeah)
[Chorus]
All my life I been fightin' this rage
Turned that hurt to a whole new face
Big now, but it made me colder
Big rocks sittin' heavy on my shoulders
All my life I been runnin' from breakin'
Now I break bread with the same ones hatin'
Can't change me, heart only got older
Big rocks sittin' heavy on my shoulders
[Verse 2]
Hit a growth spurt, hit a growth in my pride
Hit the gym, hit the block, got wide
Same ones talkin' now beg for a ride
I don't even look when they wave outside
I remember wishin' I could ever feel safe
Now the door double-locked, gate on the gate
Roll up to the spot, yeah the tension so thick
Every handshake stiff, every stare feel slick
Put ice on my neck, but it ain't cool the core
Couple bands in my fist, still poor in my soul
They say "man, you changed," yeah, that's the goal
But this rage still the same, just dressed in gold (woo)
[Chorus]
All my life I been fightin' this rage
Turned that hurt to a whole new face
Big now, but it made me colder
Big rocks sittin' heavy on my shoulders
All my life I been runnin' from breakin'
Now I break bread with the same ones hatin'
Can't change me, heart only got older
Big rocks sittin' heavy on my shoulders
[Bridge]
You ain't never had your fists as your only friend (only friend)
Talkin' to the mirror like "it's us to the end" (to the end)
Now it's velvet ropes, but the pain still lurks
Whole crowd scream my name, I still feel cursed (yeah)
[Chorus]
All my life I been fightin' this rage
Turned that hurt to a whole new face
Big now, but it made me colder
Big rocks sittin' heavy on my shoulders
All my life I been runnin' from breakin'
Now I break bread with the same ones hatin'
Can't change me, heart only got older
Big rocks sittin' heavy on my shoulders (on my shoulders)