I Knew, I Just Didn’t Trust It

[Intro]
It’s crazy
I used to feel it right away
and still talk myself out of it

[Verse 1]
I remember noticing small things
not even big enough to explain

just a feeling
like something wasn’t sitting all the way right

nothing loud
nothing obvious

just a shift
I couldn’t really put into words

and instead of leaving it there
I would start thinking through it

like maybe I’m overthinking
maybe I’m expecting too much

maybe I’m reading too far into it
maybe it’s not what I think it is

and I would sit in that
longer than I should have

not because I didn’t see it
but because I didn’t trust what I saw

[Verse 2]
it wasn’t confusion
it was hesitation

like I needed proof
for something I already felt

and by the time I got the proof
it didn’t even matter

because I already knew

I just needed something outside of me
to confirm what was already inside

and looking back
that’s the part that stands out the most

I wasn’t missing awareness
I was overriding it

[Verse 3]
I think I used to believe
that if I couldn’t explain it
then I shouldn’t act on it

like I owed everything logic
before I allowed myself to move

so I would stay
and try to understand it

try to make it make sense

even when it didn’t feel right

and the longer I stayed
the clearer it got

but I still waited

[Verse 4]
now it’s different

I don’t go back and forth with it
I don’t sit and debate it

if something feel off
I notice

if something shift
I pay attention

but I don’t argue with myself anymore

I don’t need it to fall apart
for me to understand it

I don’t wait for it to get worse
just to justify leaving

[Bridge]
I think that’s what changed

not what I see
just how I respond to it

[Verse 5]
I used to stay just to understand
now I leave with understanding

I used to wait for it to be obvious
now I trust what’s subtle

I don’t need it to prove itself
over and over again

once is enough
if I’m paying attention

and that alone
changed everything

[Outro]
I wasn’t wrong before

I just didn’t trust myself enough
to move on it

female rap, mid tempo, cinematic R&B, ambient textures, spoken word flow, emotional storytelling, calm tone