Remanicing

Back when I was younger, I ain’t know what I had

Everything felt heavy, moving life half-mad

You was there before the scars, before I moved guarded

Before I learned how to act like I wasn’t soft-hearted

We ain’t start perfect, never claimed that

Both of us learning where love was at

I was chasing survival, you wanted stability

I was living by instinct, you saw possibility

You knew my background, knew how I was raised

Knew I kept my feelings locked in a cage

I ain’t cheat you for thrills, I cheated myself

By not knowing how to ask nobody for help

We had moments that felt like forever

Then days where the tension stayed heavy

I’d go quiet instead of explaining the truth

And every silence just pushed me from you

Looking back now, I see it clear

I was scared of the future, not scared of fear

You wanted growth, I was stuck on pride

Didn’t know how to balance love and survival at the time

I don’t carry anger, I carry respect

Some people ain’t losses, they lessons you kept

You showed me patience before I knew my worth

Before the world hardened the way that it hurt

If I speak your name, it ain’t with regret

Just acknowledging chapters I can’t forget

We both moved on, that’s how life goes

But you was real in a time when I needed that most

So here’s to the past, no bitterness said

Just truth from a man who matured with the years

You weren’t meant to stay, and that’s okay

You still shaped the way I love to this day.