[Intro]
Soft room
Dim walls
Sleepless eyes
Closed doors
[Verse 1]
I am not ok
Cup of cold coffee on the floor
Phone lit up with all these names
But I can’t press call anymore
On the edge of a cliff
Breathing like the ground might shake
Every little sound so loud
Every little thought an earthquake
[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve been tracing cracks in the ceiling
Like a map out of my head
If they listened for a second
Would they hear what hasn’t been said?
[Chorus]
I am not ok
I am just trying to hold on
Sorrow and pain everywhere I turn
But I keep hanging by my fingers on this crumbling stone
Searching for the light
In a room that never opens up the blinds for me
Why don’t they understand me?
Why don’t they understand I’m barely here?
[Verse 2]
Pulled sleeves
Hide marks they’ll never see
Laugh lines I practiced
In the mirror just to make them believe
Telling me “you’re strong”
Like it’s something I can switch on
They don’t see the shaking hands
When the brave face is gone
[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve been talking quiet in my head
Just to drown the restless noise
If they leaned in for a heartbeat
Would they recognize this voice?
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
If I say “I’m fine”
That means “stay”
If I look away
That means “I’m afraid”
If I’m still here
That means “I fought”
Every tiny step
Is a battle they forgot
[whispered vocals] Can you hear me now?
[Chorus]