Horror on Repeat

It’s horror on repeat

Wake up, work, then bleed

Controller in my hands

Just to get away from me

New city, same old pain

Different pills, same old veins

I keep respawning in this cage

But my ways never change (never change, never change)

Alarm on my phone

Same four walls

New state

But it all feels old

Horror filled life, same script, new stage

New zip code but I keep the same rage

Name tag on and my soul in a cage

Clock in, clock out, rot day by day

Break room small talk, fake laugh, fake grin

Float through the aisles with a ghost in my skin

Smile at the boss while I’m breaking within

Every paycheck just a ticket to sin

It’s horror on repeat

Wake up, work, then bleed

Controller in my hands

Just to get away from me

New city, same old pain

Different pills, same old veins

I keep respawning in this cage

But my ways never change (never change)

Highways at night, I don’t see the road

Just staring at lines while my heart corrodes

GPS saying that I’m “almost home”

But it don’t know how deep the black hole goes

Lights off, screen on, headset, escape

Click “join party” just to mute the ache

New map, same fear, camping in the shade

Hide in pixels ‘til my eyes decay

Friends in my ear talk trash, crack jokes

They don’t hear the static when my hope chokes

Lag out the pain, let the headset soak

Tears on the mic while I say “I’m woke” (I’m fine)

It’s horror on repeat

Wake up, work, then bleed

Controller in my hands

Just to get away from me

New city, same old pain

Different pills, same old veins

I keep respawning in this cage

But my ways never change (never change)

Is this living or a loading screen?

Am I stuck between what I was and what I’ll never be?

Every level ends the same way

Face down in the dark

Save file in the grave

It’s horror on repeat

Wake up, work, then bleed

Controller in my hands

Just to get away from me

New city, same old pain

Different pills, same old veins

I keep respawning in this cage

But my ways never change (never change, never change)